People says new year new hopes..
but 4 me, this year would make me say new year, new challenges..
haha...
many things keep coming banging on me...just feel like standing in the middle of a circle of people who keep throwing stoneS at me... But luckily, i still have d feeling like a big strong pillar..standing strong and wont let the stones hit me down...so i gonna be wise..hv 2 let go which i think i cant handle n focusing on wat i need 2 do.. When let of the stone, makes me hope dat the stones wont turn back n hit me again..i m juz a normal human, i cant please any1..
My education n fellowship being my major stones testing my life...i now defending against these stones...so i hv 2 avoid n let go other stones which might lower down my defence..but,may be when i let go other stones will effect the major stones become stronger against me...but i cant do anything as is not within my control...n of course i reli dun hope dat will happen...it juz make me feel more tired n may b my strong pillar might juz go down meet d ground...emotionless...defendless....tiredness....sadness...sickness
4 me, tell me, remind me, my ownself....escaping is not a soln..turn away is not a soln..everything hv cleared...y makin ownself like a monster...y want 2 run from reality? y not accept d reality n get goin by the wise n wisdom way? mind make the problem arise, y not we cure the sickness of our mind n start goin in new direction??
not like we dun undertand, juz we dun1 accept the reality n keep pressuring ownself n others...have 2 cool down n think back..is it worth 4 everything i do, i think, i speak? wats the wisdom way 2 solve this thing?
Juz cure it from my mind....
many things we thought we reli need 2 have, if not we will die..
IS IT WE NEED 4 LIFE?? O WE WANT 4 LIFE??
need n want is different things...think n reflect back...is we will die if we doesnt get wat we want... i c back my GOLDEN SPOON... 4 everything, 4 everytime, we reli need 2 have limit..we reli nid 2 noe where n when 2 stop...CRAVING is o horrible things...scary....
k la..i think i stop here first..fuh..all my heart shit poured here..haha..senz ar..senz...u need continue become a strong pillar o...u still need 2 make good 'ing yuan's 4 u and other people....jia you
Friday, 16 January 2009
come la.....STONES!!!!!!
Posted by pang at 17:12
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2 comments:
Not really understand what is your "stones" means??
For me, a lot of stones coming to me too! I just can't handle all the things good.
Too stress up, and make myself getting weaker and weaker? ( Is it this caused me keep on sick and sick without stopping for whole semester? Well, Me myself also not so sure.)
Sick is not a good things to enjoy. But is definety very very suffer and tiring.... T.T
actually i hv define my 'stones' in a very deep meaning which onli me can understand..haha
sori..i dunno ur situation..but i will gv u wat i think..u said a lot of stones coming 2 u...is it so? or is it u think too much? i dont think UBF gt throw stones 2 u...then, where will d stones come from except ur studies?? n stress...wat u stress?? do u noe n find its root? or d stress juz stop in ur heart n bcome ur sickness?
anyway, body can b sick but our mind cant b sick..if body sick, u must OWNSELF takecare ur health seriously; skipping meals, doesnt sleep enough will surely get u sick...n mind, if v dun hv d dhamma guide,very easy will fall sick in mind..if mind + dhamma is strong, i sure even our body feel sick, v still can live our life in energetic n happy mode..
may be, u think i m bullshitting or trying 2 act smart bout all this..wat i said in d committee meeting n here, reali based on my experience in Dhamma...i woudnt say so confidently if i dun hv the confident..that all is not copy n paste from what i hear or c....they are all about wat i experience...
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