7 days meditation retreat (QUIET 7)...

7 days of training had passed...
for me,
it is one of a toughest camp i ever have...
reli trained my mental power...

7 days of meditation really taught me many things...
i can c my emotions go up and down like sitting in a roller coster...
some time i feel really want to give up...
some time i feel i got motivation can hold on..
some time i feel nervous..
some time i feel calm...
some time...
some time...


y i will feel so???
u will now if u c d time table of the retreat...
morning wake up at 4am..
straight go 2 meditation hall 2 meditate after brushing teeth...
meditate about 1 period then do some yoga exercise..
then meditate again
after that do morning puja...then breakfast
after breakfast, meditate for 4 periods straight until lunch...
after lunch, hear sifu's talk for 1 hour
then meditate again till dinner...
after dinner, can listen 2 d second sifu's talk...
after that go back 2 meditation hall 2 meditate again...
then can finally zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

fuh..
u think meditation is easy ar???
if easy then dun have the challenge dy lo...
my first 4 days feel like living in hell...
my leg pain taouuu..... T.T
my leg very hard and cant relax...
so when meditate, i attack by the pain as i need 2 fold it in half lotus position...
so, every period of meditation, i was like playing wars with my feeling...
i try 2 hold d pain and try not 2 give up by putting my leg free...
each time like this make me feel scared 2 start meditate
i wanna run away from the meditation hall...

but days passed...
things change....
each time i battle with my own feeling, i try up many ways to make myself relax...
then as i adjust my innerself,
i oso try 2 adjust my body position..
things start 2 get better...
i suddenly realise that before coming 2 this camp, i havent know the meaning of meditation
after this retreat, i have d enough confidence to put effort on meditation.

at the last night of the camp,
after 'wu jin tern',
we gether around ji chern sifu...
chatting with him..
he is very humourous and his word really full of wisdom..
really like 2 hear his idea and d way of expressing himself...
very very hard 2 get this opportunity to sit like this
n i sit at his left side sumore...wah..
i feel so lucky...
sifu chatting with us until 2 am something...
but i managed 2 tahan until 1am b4 went 2 sleep
i was thinking
if i do not join this retreat
i would not have learn so much
this is not matter of money,
this is the most valuable things that we can only work with our own sweats without money...

this is juz a very small part that i wanna 2 share out...still got many more until can write a dictionary...haha
for my kalyana mitra out there,
if you havent try this camp,
you can go have a try....
it will test and train our mental strength
and make us know how well we know about ourself...
we can not look down on our mind...
OUR MIND IS A VERY POWERFUL AND SPECIAL THINGS
ALWAYS DO REFLECT BACK 2 OURSELF AND AWARE OF OUR ACTIONS
BECAUSE WE HAVENT KNOW OURSELF WELL
AS WE ALWAYS THINK WELL OF OURSELF ONLY

Middle of holiday

hAhA...

The final fever had gone for many weeks dy...
now in the middle of holiday..
this holiday..
until today..
many things have happened..
either good ones or bad ones..
but they all give me unvaluable experiences and memories...

"gan en" 8-)

juz after the final,
i joined UBF Dhamma camp
then help out in my village big day..
then go to Ipoh 'Bo Re Yan' to help sifu do cleaning
then 1,2,3 May just participate as fasilatator of primary school student camp...

now preparing to go to meditation retreat for 7days.
then stays at senior's house for few days before heading to chuan ying in Taiping...

hahaha...my May schedule full of activities...busier than Obama..kaka