~Rock~

The teaching the people least understand and which conflict most with their opinions is the teaching of letting go or working with empty mind...

when we conceive this in worldly terms, we get confused and think that we can do watever we want..

it juz like;

we are carrying a heavy rock


after a while we begin feel the weight,
but we dont know how to let go
so, we endure this heavy burden all the time.

If someone tells us to throw it away,
we say, " if i throw away, i won't have anything left!"
If told of all the benefits gained by throwing it away,
we would not believe it,
but would keep on thinking,
"if i throw my rock away, i will have nothing"

So, we keep on carrying this heavy rock until it becomes so unbearably heavy,
and we become so weak
and exhausted,
that we just have to drop it
.
.
.


Having dropped it,
we suddenly experience the benefits of letting go...
we feel better and lighter
we know ourselves how much the burden carrying a rock can be...

before we let go of the rock,
we couldn't possibly know the benefits of letting go...
Later on
we may start carrying burdens again,
but now we know what the results will be,
so we can let go more easily...

This understanding- it is useless carrying burdens around and letting go brings ease and lightness - is an example of knowing ourselves...

OUR PRIDE
OUR SENSE OF SELF THAT WE DEPEND ON..
is the same as the HEAVY ROCK...

like the rock~
if we think about letting go of self,
we are afraid that without it there will nothing left..

but,
when it is time we can finally let it go,
we realize for ourselves the ease and comfort of not clinging....

~Ajahn Chah~

The HearT sUTRA

Om Homage to the Perfection of Wisdom the Lovely, the Holy !


Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara, the Holy Lord and Bodhisattva, was moving in the deep course of the Wisdom which has gone beyond.

He looked down from on high, He beheld but five heaps, and He saw that in their own-being they were empty.

Here, O Sariputra,
form is emptiness and the very emptiness is form ;
emptiness does not differ from form, form does not differ from emptiness, whatever is emptiness, that is form,
the same is true of feelings, perceptions, impulses, and consciousness.

Here, O Sariputra,
all dharmas are marked with emptiness ;
they are not produced or stopped, not defiled or immaculate, not deficient or complete.

Therefore, O Sariputra,
in emptiness there is no form nor feeling, nor perception, nor impulse, nor consciousness ;
No eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, mind ; No forms, sounds, smells, tastes, touchables or objects of mind ; No sight-organ element, and so forth, until we come to :
No mind-consciousness element ; There is no ignorance, no extinction of ignorance, and so forth, until we come to : There is no decay and death, no extinction of decay and death. There is no suffering, no origination, no stopping, no path.
There is no cognition, no attainment and no non-attainment.

Therefore, O Sariputra,
it is because of his non-attainmentness that a Bodhisattva, through having relied on the Perfection of Wisdom, dwells without thought-coverings. In the absence of thought-coverings he has not been made to tremble,
he has overcome what can upset, and in the end he attains to Nirvana.
All those who appear as Buddhas in the three periods of time fully awake to the utmost, right and perfect Enlightenment because they have relied on the Perfection of Wisdom.
Therefore one should know the prajnaparamita as the great spell, the spell of great knowledge, the utmost spell, the unequalled spell, allayer of all suffering, in truth -- for what could go wrong ? By the prajnaparamita has this spell been delivered. It runs like this :

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha.
( Gone, gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond, O what an awakening, all-hail ! -- )

respect...

today
i found out a thing...
found out that actually respect others are very important...
especially to the elders...
elders do not juz mean those old people..
it means people who are older than us...
eventough he or she older than us 1 month or one week or even one day...
he/she still our elders..
respect the elders...
it is not about the egoness..
it is about the human morality..
i experience today what is the feeling of those elders if i does not show respect towards them...
it is quite hard to take...
if plus the egoness,
it is more hard to take the feeling...
so y make others suffering???
i thinking back to myself..
i recuiting the bad karmas if i hurt others feeling..
making others uncomfortable and suffering...
y should i do such meaningless act??
what a nice reminder for today...

thanks to Buddha for teaching me that i need to take care of my mind, speeches and actions...
besides can purify my mind and life,
i also can make harmonies living with people around me...
i believe,
when we respect others, others will respect us..
even tough there are times we enjoying and joking with each other...
but these also have a certain limits...
we shall not exceed the limits..
know when to play and what to say is important...
may be it is already our attitude,
but we ownself need to beware of it and change it..
dun make others feel bad...
it is not good...

i got to continue my work..still have a hill more nid to be done..
juz thought of these things, and gt to vomit here b4 can continue...
if not, it revolving inside my brain and spoil my mood...haha
add oil..dear Senz...

Happy New Year ~.~ received a real new year gift..

Happy 2010!!!!!
mAY yOu alL have A greaT yeAR THIS yEAR!!!
HAVING great Health N wEAlth
n grEat Studies
Dun 4get alSO tO dEVELOPE oUR wISDOM aND cOMPASSIOn!!!

haha.. Where You all went for New Year CountDown Celebration yesterDay??
I went for new year 2010 countdown at Reverend Miao Zhan place...
pEople heard i Going to see sifu during Countdown 2010
they look like disbelieve and feel funny...
can't celebrate together with sifu and fellow friends at temple de meh??
tell you ho...
this time is the second time i celebrate new year countdown party in more meaningful way
last time was in Rev. Hui lu's Dhamma Sharing in Bukit Jalil
this time really give me a very different feeling of new year celebration...
went there talk talk with Rev Miao Zhan
while having a steamboat party...
haha...
so enjoying...

you have received your New Year Present??
u did not receive anything for this New Year le..
haha
then i can boasting a while...
coz i already received it yesterday..
it was from Rev. Miao Zhan...
u all might think that it is a material kind of things...
but if u think like that,
then you are wrong...haha
actually it is sifu's words that aimed and shoot directly to my heart...

i feel shocked...
sifu actually found out my problems which i having these recent years...
i was stunned at that time..
"how on the earth do sifu know it???"
the first question arise in my mind..
haha
but time is not quite enough...
i cant discuss it with sifu in details...
really want to go find sifu and discuss with her again...
but yesterday was really enough to open my eyes...
coz i never thought of it...
really indeed a special New Year Celebration...
although reach home very very late..~at about 4.30am
but i really really appreciate this New YeAR CELEBRAtion...not regreating AT ALL!!!

you might want to know what is my problem..
but i am sorry
coz i now would like to keep it as my private matter
if i able to solve this problem
i will definately share out with you guys...

so, i wish u all a happy New 2010 again..
may you all be happy and healthy
and hope you all can find the true joy from the teaching of Buddha...

I thought....

these are the most beautiful words
which we often use as excuses
in hope that
we cover up the mistakes we have done
which in the other words
we do not want the blame fall on us

so we use "I thought..." ~ "wo yi wei...."
most of us is like dat...
including me also...
very scared to admit
that me myself have make the mistakes...
if there are place to put blame,
quickly we want to put the blame into there..
when we push the blame away..
we feel much better..

actually is our mistakes,
but we push away and make it become none of my business
is it the right way to do that?
do we actually feel better?
do we think about the feeling of those being blamed because of our mistakes?
what do they think?
what will i feel if i am in their shoes?

We all should responsible of our own doings...
we should understand that..
eventhough we pushed our mistakes aside and pretend like nothing going on
we surely will still face the consequences
only it matters about time and seriousness
if we still stubborn to admit our mistakes and do not vow to change,
we can lead to facing more serious consequences later on..
if we choose to face our mistakes and admit it, thus make a vow to change
we can see that we can easily accept the consequences
thus it is very less serious compared than we chose not to face it...

so...
stop blaming others..
there is a saying that..
when we use a finger to point outwards,
the others finger of our hands are pointing back to ourselves...
always look back to ourselves
see what is our inner self looks like..
on how to see our inner self..
we can try meditate..
only meditation can calm down our mind
when the sea water of big waves being calmed down become lake water,
you can see what is in the water... ( of course, the water need to be the crystal clear la..haha)

so,
the beginning of a journey,
the travel to our heart..... do you start dy???

PuXian Pusa really come????

u know wat...
i think pu xian pusa really come and find me....
yesterday i have weird dream...
this dream come to inspire me...
reli make me touched until i wake up..
i still can remember the plot of d dream and have clear memories of some events in the dream..

so below this,
i would take u into what i dreamed of...( it is not real, but it happens in my dream..)
the dream start off...
i was going to have an Annual Camp meeting in one of seniors house, which looks like my house...
so dat day, when i reach the house,
i looked around the house,
then an aunty come out with a mooncakes which already cut into 4 pieces..
i remember i took the part which gt the biggest egg york.. haha
then i say thank you to her..
after finish eat dy...
i call everybody to gather to have the meeting..
as i do so...
the aunty looks at me and requested that she got something wanna discuss with me...
looks like very important things..
so i ask everyone to take 5 first as i go talk to aunty...
dunno why i feel that the aunty is very quite close to me..
then as i walk with the aunty to upperfloor of the house..
the aunty ask me whether i am ok o not for the posts i helding...
i think i din answer her n i only smile at her...
then she said,
last time she used to be secreatary of a Buddhist club...
that time she also faces many difficulties
and she said it is a very normal thing..
she said that secreatary post in a buddhist society helps her a lot..
on how to use what she had learnt in Dhamma
to cope up with her difficulties..
and she said that d secreatary job are different from the chairman job...
as a chairman,
she said u need to work up wit people..
the difficulties is how to mix up with people...
she said that d position i now be is more difficult than her last time...
so she ask me to be patient and encourages me not to give up easily..
that time i only listen to what she said to me...
i decided to take that as advice...
then she ask me to see an E-mail
so i look at the E-mail and read it...I REALLY CAN SEE THE WORD ONE BY ONE AND READ IT OUT...
i didnot memorise all but it is almost like this and gt this point..( dunno why, it is really in Malay~)


KEPADA JING SHEN,

Pada masa kini, leaders dipilih mengikut populariti. Jika seseorang mempunyai populariti yang baik, maka senang lah ia menjadi pemimpin..adakah ini perkara yang baik? jikalau seseorang adalah kurang kemampuan tetapi mampu mendapat populariti untuk menjadi memimpin..apakah yang akan berlaku kepada organisasi tersebut jika kita memilih pemimpin yang kurang kemampuan tersebut daripada pemimpin yang berkaliber? Akan tetapi, keadaan adalah berbeza bagi kamu.. kamu dipilih untuk menjadi sebahagian daripada pemimpin yang bertanggung jawab meneruskan cahaya lampu yang diwarisi turun temurun sejak 2500 tahun yang lalu..Kamu perlu menjadi seorang yang tidak mudah berputus asa.

i was really touched when i read the last few lines..i wake up instantaniously due to the touch feeling i have...
when i open my eyes,
i was like wanna straight find a paper and a pen to write down what i dream juz now...
but after thinking awhile that i need to get down stairs to get d pen and paper..
i feel lazy dy...then i sleep back...
haha...

when i sleep back..
i return back to the dream..
now...i asking every1 to gather together to discuss about Annual Camp..
so we finding place to sit down..
the weird thing here is the committies choses to sit outside of the house where sit under the sun..
wah...
i feel cannot la like this..
so i said that it is not suitable to sit there as later reli become hot...
then i look into the living room..
i decided to arrange the sofa and table to aside..
making room for every one to sit down..
one of the commitee said " here so small how can sit o..."
i remember i said to him that, ' today a few people come onli, enough space to sit d la"
dat time really a few commitee attand onli..coz it is after final dy, then many when back 4 holidays...
so we gather those who availabe to do the last GM,
the GM to see wether everything is settled dy o not...
then before we start d meeting,
i see our senoir, Bro Chen Kang arrived wit a very popular spiritual figure...
i oso couldn't think of any reason that he would appear here...
i was like...
isnt he...
d Dalai Lama???
then i see my seniors like Tony there all
welcoming Dalai Lama like very long know each other..
then the weird thing is
Dalai Lama give us each a red packet
i was remember i saying
"thank you , Dalai Lama.." while kneeled down to accept his gift.. i looked at his face and he smiled at me...
i see mine packet...
Rm100 le...
my god..
then i remember there is a person who also give a red packet to Dalai Lama..
then Dalai lama went to have his meal in the dining room..
then Bro.Chen Kang sits down to have the meeting with us...
another weird things happen there also,
Bro Chen Kang offers to be the secreatary helper for me to do the minutes of the meeting..
then i see him turning his diary to look at the previous meeting minutes and ask me wether wanna report what is in the last meeting...
i still remember dat i 4got 2 bring my diary which have the last meeting things...
coz i thought juz wanna have unsettle things solve onli so forgot to bring...
then i answer to Bro. Chen Kang that we can hear the last meeting minutes...
then i see Bro. Chen Kang turn at a page...
then he start reading what is in the page..
then it turns out that he read the wrong meeting agenda which lead all of us feel something wrong about wat he is reading...
we all laugh until.....hahaha
then he quicky search for the right minutes...
then the dream starting to get blur and blurer...
then i wake up dy...
this time..
i faster brush my teeth and on my lap top
to record down what journey i going juz now in here...
haha...
anyway, anything above is juz from my dream ar,
many i couldnt know how this situation could happen in my dream...
like e-mail in malays, Dalai Lama, mooncakes, Bro ChenKang etc...
i dunno why and how...
so if got any offences, i apologize about that...

but i believe, this dream really come to inspire me..and give me advice..
may be, Pu Xian Pusa came n meet me....
gan en .. gan en...

Anyway, ~WAT a DREAM~

Bodhisatva Samantabhadra (Pu Xian pusa)~~ I need ur Help~~`

Pu Xian Pusa...
where are u now??
i really need ur help to pass over these challenges...
can you hear my voice???
will you see my blog over here??

but i believe you will come...
coz i noe it...
You know what...
i actually feel quite tired...
body is tired...
dunno why i feel like body is quite weak..
but i still have alot to do...
but i chooses to take it as mindful as i can...
i c others like seniors also working hard...
i really appreciate them..
thanks...

but i also have my own problems...
i need to face it and overcome it...
but say is very easy...
very very very hard to do le...
actually i have failed a few times...
but i keep keeping the believe...
the believe that i would change this situations...
the energy that keep me going on is the energy from the Dhamma..
only from here can give me the true strength...

and thanks to your ten vows, Pu Xian Pusa...

1. To pay homage and respect to all Buddhas.
2. To praise all the Buddhas.
3. To make abundant offerings. (i.e. give generously)
4. To repent misdeeds and evil karmas.
5. To rejoice in others' merits and virtues.
6. To request the Buddhas to continue teaching.
7. To request the Buddhas to remain in the world.
8. To follow the teachings of the Buddhas at all times.
9. To accommodate and benefit all living beings.
10. To transfer all merits and virtues to benefit all beings.

ur vows have given me the strength to move on...
coz i realise that life isn't easy
to wake up from this 'dream' is not easy,

beings from unlimited boundaries need to know the truth,
worries that keep us in suffering need to overcome,
methods of practise Dhamma unlimited need to be learnt
and the road of Buddhahood need to be accomplised....

because beings are from different characteristics and behavior,
i shall not give up easily...
i should learn to accept...
then learn how to overcome these problems...
if this method can't help,
then learn to use other methods...
Dhamma is very important in our life...
how could i give up ???
how could I not to share this so important thing with other people????
so,
puxian pusa...
i hope u can hear me...
and come and help me...
together we make the situation now become better..
thus the wheel of dhamma can still continue rolling in not only my U, but also in this world...

sabbe satta suki hottu....