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The 5 Wonderful Precepts (PART 1)

2011-11-29T22:13:00.002+08:00

First of all,

I am a Buddhist.

I am proud to be a Buddhist.

then as a Buddhist,

I am committed to follow the Buddhist precepts..

THE 5 PRECEPTS

Usually people ask about the 5 precepts that a Buddhist keep:

There are non other than:

1. Learn not to kill

2. Learn not to steal

3. Learn not to commit sexual misconducts

4. Learn not to tell lies

5. Learn not to take intoxicants

Tonight, after I attended a Buddhist talk

I learn about these 5 precepts in another new level~

The new level of the precepts are explained as below:

FIRST PRECEPT

Aware of the suffering caused by the destruction of lives, I vow to cultivate compassion and learn ways to protect the lives of people, animals, plants, and minerals. I am determined not to kill, not to let others kill, and not to condone any act of killing in the world, in my thinking, and in my way of life.

SECOND PRECEPT

Aware of the suffering caused by exploitation, social injustice, stealing, and oppression, I vow to cultivate loving kindness and learn ways to work for the well-being of people, animals, plants, and minerals. I vow to practice generosity by sharing my time, energy, and material resources with those who are in real need. I am determined not to steal and not to possess anything that should belong to others. I will respect the property of others, but I will prevent others from profiting from human suffering or the suffering of other species on Earth.

by Venerable Thich Nhat Hanh

(PART 2 TO BE CONTINUED)...

The complexities in mind

2011-09-05T18:18:00.004+08:00

it looks so close, yet it also looks very far...

it looks so same, yet it turns out to be very different...

it looks a success, yet it turns out to be a failure...

the complexities of mind

the ups and downs

i watched them during my portrait drawing

for more than 5 hours

realised that i still have a lot to learn~

Flows like a boat~

2011-05-23T11:32:00.007+08:00

flows like a boat...

the real life, we need to sail on the river of causes and conditions..

if we put our craving on one of the causes and conditions,

we would put our stop at the particular situation..

as we do not understand that every situation will changes~ ignorance,

we will eventually lead ourselves to have the worries and make our life miserable,

because the nature of each situations and things is changes and impermanence

flows like a boat,

a boat does not cling on with particular waves of water

even if we tied it up or anchor it up,

we will still find it float up on the water and letting the waves pass by it naturally

even though the boat still keep in contact with the water but the boat does not cling to particular waves or parts of the water...

if it does, we wont find any particular ways to tie the boat as the boat will hold on to the particular waves and goes where the particular waves heading to..

just like our life,

the waves of water resembled the waves of causes and conditions of our life,

there are many challenges, joys, sadness, and so on..

but these things are just waves of the river

they will come and they will go

they will be born and they will die

if we try to cling to particular situation,

we are trying to act like a boat trying to cling on a particular waves of water

it is naturally impossible to cling on

but we trying to act against the nature

and at last we brings suffering to ourselves as our efforts do not pay off...

so,

flow like a boat

everyone has his or her water to sail on...

some might sailing on the lake

some might on the sea,

river maybe,

big longkang,

maybe the water is calm,

maybe the water is as fierce as the tsunami,

no matter which and where you sail on,

much much waves will come

and they will certainly go

there is impossible act that we want to cling to one of them

when we can be like a boat,

we will find the joy of living in the moment

we will not put ourselves in the future to the coming waves

neither we will also not put ourselves in the past of the past waves

what we are living on is the current state which in the moment of each waves keep in contact with us

if we can live up to every moment,

there is no doubt for us to feel the true and real happiness...

the true happiness,

is not the external happiness which we usually feel from doing things we like...

it is actually from our inner heart and gives us the energy to make our life more meaningful

it also gives us the feel of stability of the big and strong mother earth ground..

flows like a boat in your water, my friends...

It just the Balance Scale...

2011-05-22T19:25:00.002+08:00

Last week I heard a wonderful sharing by a reverend during his talk

the talk was held during the 7 days of meditation retreat

he actually brings out the point of our life links together with a balance scale...

Do you ever noticed that,

in our life,

we always struggling so hard to balance our balance scale of our life...

mostly our way of balance the scale is to add more load to the scale...

when one side is heavier,

we add weight to the other side of the balance to balance the scale...

when we accidentally add more weight,

the balance become unbalance again

then we repeat adding more to the other side

and adding here and there...

what will happen if the load is too overweight for the balance???

ya...the balance will eventually breaks or spoils...

don't you think it is very similar to our lives??

when we unhappy,

we finding ways, buying things, searching outside to find us the happiness..

when we have enough,

we want more than the enough...

we keep holding and accepting more responsibilities,

but we do not know how to manage them

when here we feel lack of something,

we find something there to add into the part we missing...

actually what is the correct way to balance the balance scale???

it is actually taking away the load from the scale...

when one side is heavier,

we taking the weight from the side...

if another side is more heavier,

we take the weight from the side...

eventually there is no weight on the balance scale when all weight is taken out...

and this time, the balance scale would be at its most balanced state. ( if the balance scale is in good condition)

most of us scared to let go....

our craving is too strong

we do not dare to give out and let go...

and thats why we feel very uneasy all the time..

many thinks of being self-centred is very good...and do not want to contribute out

actually the joy of giving out and let go the selfishness we had is the very very beautiful joy...

when we learn to be more and more easy to let go,

we would find ourself in a more and more relax state..

because we know we can slowly overcome our craving on material and emotional parts of us...

In the meditation practice,

if a person do a meditation with his mind full of craving here and there,

he will relax himself well in the meditation and would feel very very suffer in his meditation..

just like the balance scale..

to do well in meditation practice,

make yourself as the balance scale

balance yourself by slowly letting go the thoughts of craving,

you would find yourself in a more and more relax state

in meditation itself would also acting as the weight removal for your balance act

where much unknown things hidden in our inner mind which we would't realise them in our disturbed state of mind, would slowly surfaced in the your meditation...

by watching and let go of the unknown things and thoughts, we eventually taking out the 'trash' inside us...

that is why people who practice meditation in a correct manner would find themselves in very relax and focus state.

so, empty your balance scale, my friends...

Losing is not a big deal..

2011-03-02T07:08:00.003+08:00

This early morning,

I play the clip of Ajahn Brahm Dhamma talks while doing my works...

It is a more-than-an hour talks...

but it feels like 5minutes talks....

Ajahn Brahm makes me realise that losing is actually not a big deal...

in fact, it is the most noble thing to do...

"Losing is to gain"

"in order to gain, we must first learn to lose"

Buddha is the greatest loser....

Because He knows that by losing everything, He would gain everything...

He had gone beyond Winning and Losing....because there is nothing to win and lose...

Even in meditation,

we must learn to lose or to let go things from cramming in our mind...

before can proceed further...

what a nice morning I have before I can see the cheerful morning sunlight of Wednesday....

May all beings can be cheerful in Dhamma joy...

Winning and Losing

2011-03-02T07:07:00.000+08:00

Mirror...

2011-01-23T16:46:00.002+08:00

train our mind become a mirror....
mirror reflects wat it faces...
when things that it faces go away,
the images of reflection also go away...
there is no attachment..

suffering comes
when we stubbornly cling and do not want to let go wat we faces
the feeling is terrible
but we still do not want to let go
feel very suffers but still enjoying keepin in our heart....

even we know wat is our problem,
but we still cant act as what we have learnt in the Dharma...

why??

because we have not practice enough...
Learning is not just about hearing and talking...
learning is a long time journey...
it includes process of practicing..
One may talk and preach the philosophy of life very well
but if cant act and practice wat he preaches...
it is of no use...

I still learning...
this does not mean that I would not trapped in the suffering in my daily life...
I do...
so I try to practice..
Even tough there is no 100%,
but remember,
we are advancing in each moment of practicing...
practicing to train myself into a mirror...
things comes, it comes..
face it, reflects it...
things go, it goes...
no attachments...
there is only live in the moments...
be mirror, my friends....

Voices from Ajahn Brahm

2011-01-18T09:36:00.003+08:00

When you stop and let go of the things that weigh you down, the mind soars.

IF we were to constantly exercise our body without any break, we would end up exhausted. Yet our minds are incessantly thinking, worrying, planning, complaining and fidgeting – even during supposed holidays.

What if we could get the mind to stop and rest for a while? To give it a sort of chill-out? Would we then gain renewed mental vitality?

Take time to meditate: Like the lotus which opens gradually to reveal a fragrant jewel, if you are patient, the inner part of your mind will open up and lead you to a “higher” state.

One way to give our incessant minds some time to loosen up is through meditation. While its roots are Eastern, meditation is becoming increasingly popular in the West. For example, a search on the website of the British newspaper, The Guardian, reveals dozens of entries.

A Jan 11 article titled ‘Children need more meditation and less stimulation’ surmised that “if you want your children to feel more relaxed and less stressed, give them more silence, not iPods.”

In view of the obvious benefits of mediation, the Catholic Education Office of Townsville in Queensland, Australia, has decided to spend precious funds implementing the first Christian meditation programme for all schools in the diocese.
Meditation is about being unconditionally mindful and compassionate to the present moment.

America’s renowned Mayo Clinic has this on its website (mayoclinic.com): “These days, meditation is commonly used for relaxation and stress reduction. Anyone can practise meditation. It’s simple and inexpensive ... During meditation, you focus your attention and eliminate the stream of jumbled thoughts that may be crowding your mind and causing stress.

“Meditation can give you a sense of calm, peace and balance ... and also might be useful if you have a medical condition that may be worsened by stress, such as allergies, anxiety disorders, asthma, binge eating, depression, fatigue, heart disease, high blood pressure and sleep problems.”

It recommends that people should “take a stress-reduction break wherever you are.”

Patience and clarity

Last month, along with 113 others, I took part in a nine-day meditation course in Petaling Jaya (PJ). Fittingly, it was conducted by someone who has roots in both the East and West – Ajahn Brahm, an English monk who studied quantum physics at Cambridge, and Buddhism at a forest monastery in north-east Thailand.

Born Peter Betts in London in 1951, Ajahn Brahm (ajahn is Thai for “teacher”) is now based in Perth, and has been coming regularly to teach Buddhism in Malaysia over the past decade.

Ajahn Brahm uses jokes and humour to get his message across.

The retreat was organised by the Triple Gem Centre (triplegemcentre@yahoo.com), a small Buddhist group in PJ. Its coordinator, Tan Eng Chye, said:

“We decided to invite Ajahn Brahm as he is very capable and compassionate, and is able to teach people in a relaxed and inspiring way. By telling some jokes, he creates a happy atmosphere and makes the subject more lively and interesting.”

Jokes? Well, Ajahn Brahm introduced the retreat like this: “This is not a concentration camp. This is Club Med ... Club Meditation that is!”

To demonstrate what meditation was all about, he held up a glass of water in an outstretched arm and asked a volunteer to observe if the water was still.

“Is it still yet?” he asked several times. Of course, his tensed grip caused the water to ripple.

“So how do I make the water still? I put it down – I let it go.”
Sense of calm and balance: Research in the West has found that meditation helps focus your attention, and eliminates jumbled thoughts that may cause stress.

In the same way, he said, “if you’re patient enough, eventually your mind will settle down. Then it will be like a still lake and you can see things clearly.”

In another analogy, Ajahn Brahm related how, for seven years, he had always driven up to his monastery (in Serpentine, outside Perth).

“One lovely spring morning, I decided to walk up. I could not quite recognise the hill! I saw details I had never seen before – little flowers between the rocks. The colours were richer – there were so many shades of green.

“When we see things through a moving car window, the images move so fast. We think we are seeing, but we are just seeing a fraction and nothing is deep. But when we slow down and simplify things, we see so much more. We can then see the beauty of life and become happier.”

Indeed, last Dec 4, another Guardian article zeroed in on the “psychology of distractedness”.

Harvard professor Daniel Gilbert used an iPhone app to interrupt thousands of people, repeatedly, and discovered that 47% of the time, their minds had wandered from what they were doing. They were also asked to rate their mood. The results showed that being lost in thought wasn’t much fun; people were happiest when focused on the present, and not drifting in fantasy.
Participants at the retreat held at the Triple Gem Centre in PJ, listening in rapt attention to Ajahn Brahm

Ajahn Brahm told the retreat participants that the one thing to let go of was time.

“We go through life lugging two heavy suitcases with us all the time. In one, we carry past pain and sadness. In the other, worries about the future. If we want to fly high in meditation, we have to put down our suitcases for a while!”

This applies not just to Buddhist meditation. Western authors, among them Eckhart Tolle, say the same thing too. In The Power of Now, Tolle writes:

“Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry – all forms of fear – are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness and all forms of non-forgiveness are caused by too much past, and not enough presence.”

Craving and anti-craving

We’ve heard it before, but old habits die hard. Which was why, during another session, Ajahn Brahm recommended that we walk out of the prisons we had made for ourselves by forgiving others – and, perhaps more importantly, ourselves.

“When someone calls us ugly, we tend to go, ‘Why did they call me ugly? I am not ugly. How can they call me ugly!’ And they’ve already called you ugly another three times. Why allow people to keep hurting you? Let them say it once and let it go,” he said.

“Anger takes up so much space in our minds that we have no room left to be happy. But forgiveness is an investment in our future. Similarly, the more we worry about the future, the more wonky it becomes.

“Being fully awake in the present moment is the best way to prepare for our future, because our future is being made now.”

Ajahn Brahm gives talks not only to Buddhist groups around the world, but also at corporate conferences which focus on the “zen” of business. He relates how some companies have “time out” rooms because they have realised that even short spells of meditation can rejuvenate employees’ minds and improve productivity.

So meditation is good. But doing it is not all that easy, what with work, entertainment, sports and buzzing handphones. Personally, it was a culture shock for me to just sit down, be silent, and be aware of my breath going in and out.

Before I could even get to 10 breaths, my mind was already drifting. Hmm, the air-conditioning is rather cold ... Oh, my shoulder is hurting ... Oh stop, come back to the breath. In, out, in, out ... When will I get to experience bliss, serenity and deep insight? Oh, my shoulder ...

During the retreat, we were not supposed to talk (it’s called maintaining Noble Silence) but, instead, focus on meditating. From the written questions posed to Ajahn Brahm by participants, it was clear that mine was not the only restless mind.

“You don’t DO meditation. Meditation is about letting go, letting things be,” he advised.

“Some people get upset when they cannot concentrate. Some feel dull or sleepy or have sexual fantasies. Meditation is not about fighting with the mind. It’s about letting go of wanting this and that and just observing what happens. It’s about being kind, compassionate, patient and gentle to your own mind.”

According to Buddhism, humans are dissatisfied with life because of craving (we are seldom content with what we have) and anti-craving (we dislike this and that). What if we could enter that mental spa and and just be content with whatever we have?

Ajahn Brahm used the simile of a donkey chasing a carrot dangling from the end of a stick to describe people craving after “higher” states of meditation.

“If the donkey stops running, the carrot will swing further away (at first). This is like the initial discomfort and restlessness we experience when we begin meditating. But if the donkey stays still and patient, the carrot will swing right into its mouth!”

He also used the simile of the lotus flower, which closes at night but opens layer by layer in the morning: “The outer petals are a bit rough but inside, you’ll find the most fragrant, delicate petals.

“Our mind is like that when we begin to meditate. It’s dull or restless or filled with sexual fantasies. But there is no need to suppress all that. You will find that eventually, if you are patient enough, the more beautiful inner part of your mind will open up by itself.”

And that is the true meaning of the mantra Om Mani Padme Om, “hail the jewel in the lotus”.

“When participants meet me, I know they have had a good meditation not by what they tell me, but by the smile on their faces,” he added. Meditation, not medication

But even “ordinary” meditation can benefit anyone.

“Before going to an expensive restaurant, do half an hour of meditation first. You will be able to taste and enjoy the food much better that way,” Ajahn Brahm said, at a previous talk.

A sharpened mind also helps one when it comes to studying.

“I once met this top medical student who had learnt meditation as a young girl back in Sri Lanka. She had such a clear mind that she only needed to read her books once and could remember what she’d read,” he related.

And there are the health benefits too.

A retreat participant who had reached the blissful meditation state asked about the hot spots she was feeling on her body.

“It’s a sign that the body is healing itself,” Ajahn Brahm replied.

Indeed, Jon Kabat-Zinn, founder and director of the Stress Reduction Clinic at Massachusetts Medical Center, and author of Wherever You Go There You Are, teaches hundreds of people to reduce stress and chronic pain through mindfulness meditation.

And Dr Herbert Benson, founder of the Mind-Body Medical Institute and associate professor at Harvard Medical School, has reported that meditation induces a host of changes in the body (involving metabolism, heart rate, respiration, blood pressure and brain chemistry), collectively referred to as the “relaxation response”. Thus the motto of his institute, “Prescribing meditation – not just medication”.

Ajahn Brahm recalled how he had helped a lady who was suffering from great anxiety.

“I asked in which part of her body she felt the panic attack? She said she felt the tightness in her chest. I asked her to relax her chest and give it some kindness.

“Don’t try to attack the emotion directly because the mind will loop on itself, like what happens when I put a microphone close to a (hifi) speaker.

“Instead, find the corresponding physical feeling and soothe that. It’s easier to address the physical symptoms than the emotional ones.”

Ajahn Brahm said the British National Health Service had found meditation to be an effective treatment for depression.

“Depression is caused by tiredness of the mind. When you meditate, you gain mental energy and happiness. Many people are taking up meditation because it works.

“You can call it contemplation, quiet time, mindfulness, stress reduction or whatever you like as long as it brings peace and happiness.”

~taken from The Star

~somehow read in The Star online

2011-01-18T09:30:00.003+08:00

TEACHING THROUGH HUMOUR

Fresh from a humorous workshop by abbot Ajahn Brahm, our columnist will take his stories over preachy self-help books anytime.

Blame it on a stubbornly egalitarian outlook, but I’m highly allergic to prescriptive prose.

I’ve never read Zig Ziglar, Robert Kiyosaki, Anthony Robbins or any of those big name life gurus. I gleefully delete every life improvement seminar e-mail blast that spams my mailbox. The only how-to book I’ve read cover to cover is The One Minute Manager, and that’s only because it was compulsory reading by my then employer.

Ever since I was commissioned to edit a horrifyingly clichéd book titled Secrets of Making Your First Million or some such name (that’s another story), I’ve felt that self-help books are an insult to our intelligence. They are a thinly-veiled attempt to dupe the gullible and desperate into parting with their money for what’s essentially common sense . . . which made me the unlikeliest person to sign up for two back-to-back workshops entitled, Dealing with Unhappiness and Worries and Discovering Love in Difficult Places.

Australian abbot, Ajahn Brahm.

Blame it on my Greek God. While sculpting my latest hairstyle, he dropped this tantalising one-liner: “If there was one book you must read before you die, it’s this one.”

I sat up with a start, almost causing an accident. Andrew — an astute psychologist as well as an ace hairdresser — rarely gives such thumping endorsements.

“. . . And I have a copy of the book in my shop if you want a peek,” he added slyly.

Well, with dangerous weapons so near my head, I couldn’t risk insulting the man by saying no, could I?

The tome had a quirky title: Who Ordered This Truckload of Dung? I scanned the bio briefly: the author Ajahn Brahm was as beloved for his humorous stories as he was for his uplifting teachings. Trying not to make my disdain too obvious, I began flipping the pages suspiciously.

(Brahm was born Peter Betts in London in 1951, and ordained in Bangkok at the age of 23. He is the Abbot of Bodhinyana Monastery in Serpentine, Western Australia. )

By the time my haircut was over, I had already devoured half the book, racked by laughter and tears.

So when a friend told me the venerable teacher would be in town for a seminar, I wasted no time in registering, and even talked two sceptical friends into coming along for the party.

The venue: the air-conditioned auditorium of one SRJK Chee Wen, Subang Jaya. The date: Feb 22.

By now, I had done enough reading up to know his talks were popular but the huge turnout — it was full house on a balmy Sunday afternoon — took me by surprise. What, precisely, was his X-factor?

A short intro later, Ajahn Brahm leaped out of the pages onto stage in his wrinkly brown robes, wearing that familiar impish grin that seemed photocopied from the book.

His subsequent summary of himself was certainly different from the glowing tribute which prefaced his appearance.

“I became a monk after my girlfriend dumped me. If she hadn’t done that, I would be married with a mortgage and four kids who give me a lot of trouble. If I ever meet her again, I must say thank you for getting rid of me!”

In describing one of his earliest challenges — mosquitoes in the Thai forest where he studied meditation — he deadpanned, “Do you know that mosquitoes have been trained to recognise that men in brown robes make a better dinner?

“This is why 1) they know that we cannot swat them, 2) because we are bald, they have more landing space. When they see a monk, they think to themselves, ‘Oh here’s a restaurant with more seats!’

“And 3) they make a beeline for Western monks because . . . they rarely see Western monks in this part of the world. Humans like to try new things, and it is no different with mosquitoes. They also want to have . . . Western food!”

My jaw dropped several times. Where was the holier-than-thou man of God I’d half-expected?

By the time we drove out of the school a marathon seven hours later, we were exhausted. My jaws ached from laughing too much, and my head, curiously heavy yet light-headed.

All he had done the entire session was tell stories, yet those simple, humorous tales had stirred in me more than any other experience in recent memory.

I wondered how it went down with my friends, darting a fearful glance at the two companions whom I had arm-wrestled into coming.

“He’s so down-to-earth . . . the way he responded to that guy about bald heads . . .” They burst into renewed giggles.

During the Question and Answer session, some smarty pants asked: “Why do monks have bald heads?”

Without missing a beat, Ajahn Brahm quipped: “Because otherwise they would tear all their hair out answering questions like these!”

Ever the gentleman, he followed with a considered, sober answer despite knowing full well — as the audience did — that the question was some heckler’s attempt to test his Venerable One’s ability to think on his feet.

I had come to the talk prepared for his wit. What I didn’t expect was his bracing, almost unsettling, honesty.

In response to a question about his views on premarital sex, he replied, “You will have premarital sex and your children will have premarital sex and you won’t be able to stop that. All you can do is to protect them. And protection is not about contraceptives alone, it’s also about protecting their emotions.”

A very down-to-earth, sensible, yet non-judgmental statement that he prefaced with a somewhat shocking admission: before he joined the monastery, he was no angel himself. He had had his share of romantic relationships and could have just as easily become a father by accident, as an ascetic.

“It’s almost like he’s one of us,” Maria marvelled.

Perhaps that was the secret behind Ajahn Brahm’s broad appeal. He understood the fundamentals of imparting wisdom. It was not about sitting on your high horse, celestial or otherwise, and dispensing advice like you’re better than everyone else, but about honest sharing and relating.

Remarkably, for someone so accomplished, he was never patronising or sanctimonious. (He won a scholarship to study Theoretical Physics at Cambridge in the late 1960s.) On the contrary, he poked fun at himself whenever the opportunity presented itself.

He admitted cheerfully, “One character flaw I can’t change is that I like to crack silly jokes.”

I ran my fingers reverently over the brown-shaded book I had purchased from the sales counter, and turned it over.

“It would fall apart from your attention,” an enthusiastic book reviewer raved.

If my already dog-eared book of just one month is any indication, a truer blurb was never writ.

> Alexandra Wong (bunnysprints.blogspot.com) says teaching is not preaching.

~What a Wonderful World~

2010-12-06T09:40:00.003+08:00

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

Zen Master Hakuin's Equanimity

2010-11-28T15:01:00.002+08:00

The Zen Master Hakuin (1686-1769) travelled extensively to learn from other masters. When he was 32 years old, he returned to the Shoin-ji, the temple in his home town of Hara, in present-day Shizuoka Prefecture. Here he devoted himself to teaching a growing number of disciples. Hakuin was praised by his neighbors as a teacher living an exemplary life.

A beautiful Japanese girl whose parents owned a food store lived near him. One day without warning, her parents discovered that she was pregnant.

This made her parents angry. The girl would not confess who the man was, but after much harassment, she named Hakuin as the father.

In great anger the parents went to the Zen Master and scolded him in front of all his students. All Hakuin would say was “Is that so?”

After the baby boy was born, it was entrusted to Hakuin's care. By this time he had lost his reputation. His disciples have left him. However Hakuin was not disturbed, and enjoyed taking care of the little boy. He obtained milk and other essentials the boy needed from his neighbors.

A year later, the girl-mother couldn't stand it any longer. She confessed the truth to her parents— that the real father of the boy was not Hakuin but a young man working in the local fishmarket.

The father and mother of the girl went to Hakuin at once. They asked his forgiveness and apologized profusely to get the boy back.

Although Hakuin loved the child as his own, he was willing. In giving up the boy, all he said was: “Is that so?”

— Edited from Paul Reps, Zen Flesh, Zen Bones (1957), p. 22

Where would we be if we falsely being accused for things we did not do?

Wouldn't we fight until the last blood for our justice?

But Master Hakuin is different...

He understand that the baby is innocent.

He knows that things happened because of causes and conditions..

He also knows that things end because of causes and conditions...

He practices the Paramitas of Patience so well...that he does not affected by the external tests and criticisms even though he was being framed by other people..

His story really touches me..

I have to admit that I nearly cried from my heart when Reverend Tong Ming was telling this story during the Annual Camp 2010 which has just passed.

This story would be my inspiration whenever I meet any problems like this.

I am still learning and there still a long Way to go...

But I chose to walk step by step...

Deep in my heart,

I am very grateful to have the opportunities to learn the Dhamma.

It helps me to realize the meaning of a true life.

May all beings and non beings,

May all that I known and haven't known,

May all that I can see and can't see,

May all that I can hear and can't hear,

May all in this infinite universe,

MAY YOU ALL BE CHERISH IN THE JOY OF DHAMMA...

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2010-11-18T21:27:00.001+08:00

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Believe, Moving, Enjoying~

2010-10-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

if you believe.....
you will move on....
keep moving on, my friends....
you will never know where will you be 2moro..

sadness is just the training....
panic is just the training...
heart pain is just the training...
down is just the training...

seeing things in through keyhole view, we see ourself as the biggest thing in the world...

open the door and see the world, we are not like we think it is...

just enjoy the training..and keep enjoying the fullest of this life...life is short...dun waste it...

When a Buddhist meets a Christian....

2010-05-23T09:46:00.003+08:00

On last Friday nite,
I was attending a farewell party of my friend who is going to US for studies.

In the party, there are about 9 people of us..
During the party,
there was a time,
one of my friend asked me about Buddhism...as his college friend asked him to join one of the Buddhist Society.. So, I share out my experiences and what I have learned about Buddhism..
It was happened to be another friend of mine who is a strong Christian follower at side following our conversation..

So, after a while the conversation changed direction,
it suddenly becomes a conversation between a Buddhist and a Christian,
the good friend of mine ask me questions and speaks out his opinion,
There is when we come across over a topic where the believe in the existence of God..
He shared out that he really believe in just one mighty God and he believes that this God is not just appear in Western World and the God would also appear and can be accepted in many cultures..
He jumped to the conclusion for Buddhist that Buddhist does not believe in the existence of God..
But, I gave him the answers that Buddhist actually believe in the existence of God...
He looks in disbelieved and asked me wether i was in the true Buddhist society...

dear all...
as a Buddhist,
we are ought to respect other people...
as a Buddhist,
we are ought to avoid for condemn other people's believe...
as a Buddhist,
we are ought to be humble and act wisdomly...
as a Buddhist,
we are ought to remember to look back into our own problems which keep us in samsara world and try to overcome the problems..

Continue back the story,
actually,
Buddhist does believe in the existence of God..
but that is not the part where Buddhist are heading..
to make the ground clear,
the Buddha is not a God which many claimed..
He is a Teacher who discovered the path to cease suffering..
He is not the person who create the path,
He discovered it literally like Sir Newton discovered earth gravity...
but, He discovered it from all His hardworks, determinations and compassion..
so,
from the teaching of Buddha,
in this world of samsara(suffering),
there are 6 planes of existances,
1) Heavenly Beings
2) Asuras
3) Human
4) Animal
5) Hungry Ghost
6) Hell Beings
The God existence is in the Heavenly Beings planes..
So, this proved that we does accept the existance of God.
but,
in Buddhism,
all these planes of samsara existence are not advisable for taking refuge..
all of them has their own problems and worries,
In Buddhism,
we are taking refuge on not only the Buddha,
we are taking refuge on the TRIPLE GEMS,
TRIPLE GEMS = BUDDHA, DHARMA and SANGHA
because TRIPLE GEMS lead and guide us to cease our suffering and worries
TRIPE GEMS are making us realize what are our own worries and help to solve our problems..
The important objective in Buddhism is we as a being who still strangled in the world of samsara, have to find why are we got strangled and how to escape and act to release ourselves from the stranglehold.
We shall not go finding the peace of life externally, and we shall search it internally within us...
Dont be like searching far away outside our house for thieves, when the thieves are actually inside our house...

Dear Christian follower,
if you are happens to read my writing over here,
Actually
The direction of the Christianity and Buddhism are not the same..
we cant compare which one is better and be boasting around...

In Christianity,
It may all about the Mighty God and human...

In Buddhism,
the general ideas are,
we avoid all evil,
we practice good deeds,
and we purify our mind...

after all,
it would be better when
we choose to respect others,
and we choose to praise and learn for the goodness
and we choose to avoid from the evil....

during the conversation,
i was watching myself,
there were times i saw my ego arose,
Egoness which make I am superior, knows better and wanna intercept and debate to make others accept my opinions...
but I able to see these feeling and manage to overcome it,
I choose to listen to others opinions and speaks whenever it is suitable to speak...

It is not effective to force others to agree with us when the person have his strong opinion about the matter,
it is juz like the simile of a cup
when a cup is turned upside down,
the water can not fill the cup.

It is also not effective to force others to agree with us when the person have his strong believe on his misunderstnding...
It is just like the cup contained poison,
when water is poured in the cup,
the water cant be consumed as the water already poisoned...

In me,
Surfaced the images of the times when Buddha meets the strong followers of other religion,
For me, this is one of the example of situation,
suddenly the strong feeling of praising the Buddha arose and gt impressed his wisdom in facing such a problem,

Suddenly got shamed by my lackness of learning dhamma recently,

Oh Buddha,

I still have alot alot more to learn....

~Rock~

2010-03-22T18:20:00.002+08:00

The teaching the people least understand and which conflict most with their opinions is the teaching of letting go or working with empty mind...

when we conceive this in worldly terms, we get confused and think that we can do watever we want..

it juz like;

we are carrying a heavy rock

after a while we begin feel the weight,
but we dont know how to let go
so, we endure this heavy burden all the time.

If someone tells us to throw it away,
we say, " if i throw away, i won't have anything left!"
If told of all the benefits gained by throwing it away,
we would not believe it,
but would keep on thinking,
"if i throw my rock away, i will have nothing"

So, we keep on carrying this heavy rock until it becomes so unbearably heavy,
and we become so weak
and exhausted,
that we just have to drop it
.
.
.

Having dropped it,
we suddenly experience the benefits of letting go...
we feel better and lighter
we know ourselves how much the burden carrying a rock can be...

before we let go of the rock,
we couldn't possibly know the benefits of letting go...
Later on
we may start carrying burdens again,
but now we know what the results will be,
so we can let go more easily...

This understanding- it is useless carrying burdens around and letting go brings ease and lightness - is an example of knowing ourselves...

OUR PRIDE
OUR SENSE OF SELF THAT WE DEPEND ON..
is the same as the HEAVY ROCK...

like the rock~
if we think about letting go of self,
we are afraid that without it there will nothing left..

but,
when it is time we can finally let it go,
we realize for ourselves the ease and comfort of not clinging....

~Ajahn Chah~

The HearT sUTRA

2010-02-02T09:25:00.002+08:00

Om Homage to the Perfection of Wisdom the Lovely, the Holy !

Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara, the Holy Lord and Bodhisattva, was moving in the deep course of the Wisdom which has gone beyond.

He looked down from on high, He beheld but five heaps, and He saw that in their own-being they were empty.

Here, O Sariputra,
form is emptiness and the very emptiness is form ;
emptiness does not differ from form, form does not differ from emptiness, whatever is emptiness, that is form,
the same is true of feelings, perceptions, impulses, and consciousness.

Here, O Sariputra,
all dharmas are marked with emptiness ;
they are not produced or stopped, not defiled or immaculate, not deficient or complete.

Therefore, O Sariputra,
in emptiness there is no form nor feeling, nor perception, nor impulse, nor consciousness ;
No eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, mind ; No forms, sounds, smells, tastes, touchables or objects of mind ; No sight-organ element, and so forth, until we come to :
No mind-consciousness element ; There is no ignorance, no extinction of ignorance, and so forth, until we come to : There is no decay and death, no extinction of decay and death. There is no suffering, no origination, no stopping, no path.
There is no cognition, no attainment and no non-attainment.

Therefore, O Sariputra,
it is because of his non-attainmentness that a Bodhisattva, through having relied on the Perfection of Wisdom, dwells without thought-coverings. In the absence of thought-coverings he has not been made to tremble,
he has overcome what can upset, and in the end he attains to Nirvana.
All those who appear as Buddhas in the three periods of time fully awake to the utmost, right and perfect Enlightenment because they have relied on the Perfection of Wisdom.
Therefore one should know the prajnaparamita as the great spell, the spell of great knowledge, the utmost spell, the unequalled spell, allayer of all suffering, in truth -- for what could go wrong ? By the prajnaparamita has this spell been delivered. It runs like this :

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha.
( Gone, gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond, O what an awakening, all-hail ! -- )

respect...

2010-01-15T22:48:00.003+08:00

today
i found out a thing...
found out that actually respect others are very important...
especially to the elders...
elders do not juz mean those old people..
it means people who are older than us...
eventough he or she older than us 1 month or one week or even one day...
he/she still our elders..
respect the elders...
it is not about the egoness..
it is about the human morality..
i experience today what is the feeling of those elders if i does not show respect towards them...
it is quite hard to take...
if plus the egoness,
it is more hard to take the feeling...
so y make others suffering???
i thinking back to myself..
i recuiting the bad karmas if i hurt others feeling..
making others uncomfortable and suffering...
y should i do such meaningless act??
what a nice reminder for today...

thanks to Buddha for teaching me that i need to take care of my mind, speeches and actions...
besides can purify my mind and life,
i also can make harmonies living with people around me...
i believe,
when we respect others, others will respect us..
even tough there are times we enjoying and joking with each other...
but these also have a certain limits...
we shall not exceed the limits..
know when to play and what to say is important...
may be it is already our attitude,
but we ownself need to beware of it and change it..
dun make others feel bad...
it is not good...

i got to continue my work..still have a hill more nid to be done..
juz thought of these things, and gt to vomit here b4 can continue...
if not, it revolving inside my brain and spoil my mood...haha
add oil..dear Senz...

Happy New Year ~.~ received a real new year gift..

2010-01-01T14:35:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010!!!!!
mAY yOu alL have A greaT yeAR THIS yEAR!!!
HAVING great Health N wEAlth
n grEat Studies
Dun 4get alSO tO dEVELOPE oUR wISDOM aND cOMPASSIOn!!!

haha.. Where You all went for New Year CountDown Celebration yesterDay??
I went for new year 2010 countdown at Reverend Miao Zhan place...
pEople heard i Going to see sifu during Countdown 2010
they look like disbelieve and feel funny...
can't celebrate together with sifu and fellow friends at temple de meh??
tell you ho...
this time is the second time i celebrate new year countdown party in more meaningful way
last time was in Rev. Hui lu's Dhamma Sharing in Bukit Jalil
this time really give me a very different feeling of new year celebration...
went there talk talk with Rev Miao Zhan
while having a steamboat party...
haha...
so enjoying...

you have received your New Year Present??
u did not receive anything for this New Year le..
haha
then i can boasting a while...
coz i already received it yesterday..
it was from Rev. Miao Zhan...
u all might think that it is a material kind of things...
but if u think like that,
then you are wrong...haha
actually it is sifu's words that aimed and shoot directly to my heart...

i feel shocked...
sifu actually found out my problems which i having these recent years...
i was stunned at that time..
"how on the earth do sifu know it???"
the first question arise in my mind..
haha
but time is not quite enough...
i cant discuss it with sifu in details...
really want to go find sifu and discuss with her again...
but yesterday was really enough to open my eyes...
coz i never thought of it...
really indeed a special New Year Celebration...
although reach home very very late..~at about 4.30am
but i really really appreciate this New YeAR CELEBRAtion...not regreating AT ALL!!!

you might want to know what is my problem..
but i am sorry
coz i now would like to keep it as my private matter
if i able to solve this problem
i will definately share out with you guys...

so, i wish u all a happy New 2010 again..
may you all be happy and healthy
and hope you all can find the true joy from the teaching of Buddha...

I thought....

2009-11-30T17:50:00.003+08:00

these are the most beautiful words
which we often use as excuses
in hope that
we cover up the mistakes we have done
which in the other words
we do not want the blame fall on us

so we use "I thought..." ~ "wo yi wei...."
most of us is like dat...
including me also...
very scared to admit
that me myself have make the mistakes...
if there are place to put blame,
quickly we want to put the blame into there..
when we push the blame away..
we feel much better..

actually is our mistakes,
but we push away and make it become none of my business
is it the right way to do that?
do we actually feel better?
do we think about the feeling of those being blamed because of our mistakes?
what do they think?
what will i feel if i am in their shoes?

We all should responsible of our own doings...
we should understand that..
eventhough we pushed our mistakes aside and pretend like nothing going on
we surely will still face the consequences
only it matters about time and seriousness
if we still stubborn to admit our mistakes and do not vow to change,
we can lead to facing more serious consequences later on..
if we choose to face our mistakes and admit it, thus make a vow to change
we can see that we can easily accept the consequences
thus it is very less serious compared than we chose not to face it...

so...
stop blaming others..
there is a saying that..
when we use a finger to point outwards,
the others finger of our hands are pointing back to ourselves...
always look back to ourselves
see what is our inner self looks like..
on how to see our inner self..
we can try meditate..
only meditation can calm down our mind
when the sea water of big waves being calmed down become lake water,
you can see what is in the water... ( of course, the water need to be the crystal clear la..haha)

so,
the beginning of a journey,
the travel to our heart..... do you start dy???

PuXian Pusa really come????

2009-10-27T08:05:00.003+08:00

u know wat...
i think pu xian pusa really come and find me....
yesterday i have weird dream...
this dream come to inspire me...
reli make me touched until i wake up..
i still can remember the plot of d dream and have clear memories of some events in the dream..

so below this,
i would take u into what i dreamed of...( it is not real, but it happens in my dream..)
the dream start off...
i was going to have an Annual Camp meeting in one of seniors house, which looks like my house...
so dat day, when i reach the house,
i looked around the house,
then an aunty come out with a mooncakes which already cut into 4 pieces..
i remember i took the part which gt the biggest egg york.. haha
then i say thank you to her..
after finish eat dy...
i call everybody to gather to have the meeting..
as i do so...
the aunty looks at me and requested that she got something wanna discuss with me...
looks like very important things..
so i ask everyone to take 5 first as i go talk to aunty...
dunno why i feel that the aunty is very quite close to me..
then as i walk with the aunty to upperfloor of the house..
the aunty ask me whether i am ok o not for the posts i helding...
i think i din answer her n i only smile at her...
then she said,
last time she used to be secreatary of a Buddhist club...
that time she also faces many difficulties
and she said it is a very normal thing..
she said that secreatary post in a buddhist society helps her a lot..
on how to use what she had learnt in Dhamma
to cope up with her difficulties..
and she said that d secreatary job are different from the chairman job...
as a chairman,
she said u need to work up wit people..
the difficulties is how to mix up with people...
she said that d position i now be is more difficult than her last time...
so she ask me to be patient and encourages me not to give up easily..
that time i only listen to what she said to me...
i decided to take that as advice...
then she ask me to see an E-mail
so i look at the E-mail and read it...I REALLY CAN SEE THE WORD ONE BY ONE AND READ IT OUT...
i didnot memorise all but it is almost like this and gt this point..( dunno why, it is really in Malay~)

KEPADA JING SHEN,

Pada masa kini, leaders dipilih mengikut populariti. Jika seseorang mempunyai populariti yang baik, maka senang lah ia menjadi pemimpin..adakah ini perkara yang baik? jikalau seseorang adalah kurang kemampuan tetapi mampu mendapat populariti untuk menjadi memimpin..apakah yang akan berlaku kepada organisasi tersebut jika kita memilih pemimpin yang kurang kemampuan tersebut daripada pemimpin yang berkaliber? Akan tetapi, keadaan adalah berbeza bagi kamu.. kamu dipilih untuk menjadi sebahagian daripada pemimpin yang bertanggung jawab meneruskan cahaya lampu yang diwarisi turun temurun sejak 2500 tahun yang lalu..Kamu perlu menjadi seorang yang tidak mudah berputus asa.

i was really touched when i read the last few lines..i wake up instantaniously due to the touch feeling i have...
when i open my eyes,
i was like wanna straight find a paper and a pen to write down what i dream juz now...
but after thinking awhile that i need to get down stairs to get d pen and paper..
i feel lazy dy...then i sleep back...
haha...

when i sleep back..
i return back to the dream..
now...i asking every1 to gather together to discuss about Annual Camp..
so we finding place to sit down..
the weird thing here is the committies choses to sit outside of the house where sit under the sun..
wah...
i feel cannot la like this..
so i said that it is not suitable to sit there as later reli become hot...
then i look into the living room..
i decided to arrange the sofa and table to aside..
making room for every one to sit down..
one of the commitee said " here so small how can sit o..."
i remember i said to him that, ' today a few people come onli, enough space to sit d la"
dat time really a few commitee attand onli..coz it is after final dy, then many when back 4 holidays...
so we gather those who availabe to do the last GM,
the GM to see wether everything is settled dy o not...
then before we start d meeting,
i see our senoir, Bro Chen Kang arrived wit a very popular spiritual figure...
i oso couldn't think of any reason that he would appear here...
i was like...
isnt he...
d Dalai Lama???
then i see my seniors like Tony there all
welcoming Dalai Lama like very long know each other..
then the weird thing is
Dalai Lama give us each a red packet
i was remember i saying
"thank you , Dalai Lama.." while kneeled down to accept his gift.. i looked at his face and he smiled at me...
i see mine packet...
Rm100 le...
my god..
then i remember there is a person who also give a red packet to Dalai Lama..
then Dalai lama went to have his meal in the dining room..
then Bro.Chen Kang sits down to have the meeting with us...
another weird things happen there also,
Bro Chen Kang offers to be the secreatary helper for me to do the minutes of the meeting..
then i see him turning his diary to look at the previous meeting minutes and ask me wether wanna report what is in the last meeting...
i still remember dat i 4got 2 bring my diary which have the last meeting things...
coz i thought juz wanna have unsettle things solve onli so forgot to bring...
then i answer to Bro. Chen Kang that we can hear the last meeting minutes...
then i see Bro. Chen Kang turn at a page...
then he start reading what is in the page..
then it turns out that he read the wrong meeting agenda which lead all of us feel something wrong about wat he is reading...
we all laugh until.....hahaha
then he quicky search for the right minutes...
then the dream starting to get blur and blurer...
then i wake up dy...
this time..
i faster brush my teeth and on my lap top
to record down what journey i going juz now in here...
haha...
anyway, anything above is juz from my dream ar,
many i couldnt know how this situation could happen in my dream...
like e-mail in malays, Dalai Lama, mooncakes, Bro ChenKang etc...
i dunno why and how...
so if got any offences, i apologize about that...

but i believe, this dream really come to inspire me..and give me advice..
may be, Pu Xian Pusa came n meet me....
gan en .. gan en...

Anyway, ~WAT a DREAM~

Bodhisatva Samantabhadra (Pu Xian pusa) I need ur Help`

2009-10-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

Pu Xian Pusa...
where are u now??
i really need ur help to pass over these challenges...
can you hear my voice???
will you see my blog over here??

but i believe you will come...
coz i noe it...
You know what...
i actually feel quite tired...
body is tired...
dunno why i feel like body is quite weak..
but i still have alot to do...
but i chooses to take it as mindful as i can...
i c others like seniors also working hard...
i really appreciate them..
thanks...

but i also have my own problems...
i need to face it and overcome it...
but say is very easy...
very very very hard to do le...
actually i have failed a few times...
but i keep keeping the believe...
the believe that i would change this situations...
the energy that keep me going on is the energy from the Dhamma..
only from here can give me the true strength...

and thanks to your ten vows, Pu Xian Pusa...

To pay ho mag e and respect to all Buddhas.
To praise all the Buddhas.
To make abundant offerings. (i.e. give generously)
To repent misdeeds and evil karmas.
To rejoice in others' merits and virtues.
To request the Buddhas to continue teaching.
To request the Buddhas to remain in the world.
To follow the teachings of the Buddhas at all times.
To accommodate and benefit all living beings.
To transfer all merits and virtues to benefit all beings.

ur vows have given me the strength to move on...
coz i realise that life isn't easy
to wake up from this 'dream' is not easy,

beings from unlimited boundaries need to know the truth,
worries that keep us in suffering need to overcome,
methods of practise Dhamma unlimited need to be learnt
and the road of Buddhahood need to be accomplised....

because beings are from different characteristics and behavior,
i shall not give up easily...
i should learn to accept...
then learn how to overcome these problems...
if this method can't help,
then learn to use other methods...
Dhamma is very important in our life...
how could i give up ???
how could I not to share this so important thing with other people????
so,
puxian pusa...
i hope u can hear me...
and come and help me...
together we make the situation now become better..
thus the wheel of dhamma can still continue rolling in not only my U, but also in this world...

sabbe satta suki hottu....

Will never STAND UP if GAVE UP !!!!

2009-09-30T10:52:00.003+08:00

for the first time,
i try to post a different thing...
a video clip...
this video clip comes in the rite time 4 me...

quite inspiring me for these time...
reli impressed...
when i sincerely nid some answers,
the answer will come 2 me..
may b it is d power of dhamma...

do i dare to say "gv up dy"??
think back..
think back...
gambatei, senz...

Practise everything....

2009-09-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

still thinking and searching the answers about what and where is the mind....

today, i thought of something...
mind...
we can lead our life is because our mind..
mind are everything of us..
but our mind now is developed and surrounded by the three evils...
the three components which lead us to suffering..
ignorance, craving, hatred...
because they keep making our mind up and down..
the vibration they made..
make us think that it is our true mind...
make us think that there is a self in us...
is it the real situation?
it is juz like the clouds cover the beautiful moon...
the beautiful moon juz like our mind..
the clouds juz like the three evil..
when the clouds cover over the moon,
sm1 might think that 2nite the moon do not come out..
actually..
the moon is there on the sky..
juz it being covered by the clouds which make it disappeared...

so...
when we practise to purify our mind...
we actually are practising everything...
everything in our speech, thinking and actions..
the mind is the most important element...
no matter v play computer
read books
play football
cooking
if v can practise to see and purify our mind,
everything we do
we also can find the joy of doin it..
If we noe and follow the rule of the life,
we can actually get happiness from all things we are doin...
ladies and gentlemen,
EVERYTHING!!!
such a good chance of us to learn the subject that teaches everything,
why waste it?
why?
Y?
no nid us to pay very high fees to learn also..
even no nid us to pay oso...
sometimes i really want to cry...
reli want to cry...
see the chances of people around me wasted like that..
not that i want to be proud of myself..
juz dat
like when found smthing very useful and wants to share it out
but people dun feel so..and dun1 even sit down and hear what i goin to say...
wat to do...
but nwm...
the seed still need b to plant...
when it become tree,
i dunno..
i only noe
if seed planted
it gt a chance to grow up one day..
haha...yeah!

My Homework....

2009-09-25T15:21:00.002+08:00

juz finish watch another Rev. Hui Lu's talk...
feel really very worth to spend time on it although my projects n assignments havent finish do...
haha..

this time...
the talk..
really give me a homework..
sifu got emphasis about the mind (xin)...
taken from sutras...
he repeatedly emphasis about these
"mind is not at past, mind is not in the present, and mind is not in the future"
"mind is not in inside of us, mind is not outside of us, and mind is not in the middle"

what does it mean??
so where is the mind?
what is the mind??
although i understand what sifu explain about these..
but i feel that i am not fully understand these..
then i feel that i have a homework...
homework...
to find and experience what these words actually means...
a sudden feel that i need to search for the answer...
to experience the answer...
until now,
these words keep floating around my mind...
ah....
dharma....
the Truth...
really wonderful..
really powerful....
these is where i feel proud to put my steps in...
trekking in this jungle,
to find the most PRECIOUS TREASURE...

ideas.....

2009-09-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

this morning,
i open the dvd of Rev. Hui Lu's talk
hear it for 2 hours...
from start until end i onli watch rev hui lu keep preaching...
but the effect, i feel wonderful than watching a movie of that length of time..
reli so wonderful...
many things i can learn...
the happiness after hearing d talk gives me ohm...
haha...

one of the point which he brings out is
actually many things thing in this world are just our idea which served for convenience purpose only...
for example, the time..

because of our earth are spinning and revolving around the sun..
so we will have half of the earth in the bright side while the other side is on the dark side...
so we called the bright side as the day
and the dark side as the night
when we have day n night,
we can develope time based on that...
these is juz the idea for convenience purpose..
these are not real things..
when we are out of this earth and go to outer space,
there are no day and night...
so how do we determine the time there???
impossible to use the time we used in earth when we at there....
so where gone the time??

these is when Rev. Hui lu trying to explain what means 'emptiness'
'emptiness'...
for example, a cup...
we cant say that it does not exist
we oso cant say that it is a real and permanent thing,
in 'emptiness', it is a form which appear from the combination of many things..
as it is a combination...
when it born, it will surely die...
die means the separation of its combination..
then he got explain about the difference between lay people and sage...
both have the same very expensive and beautiful cup...
one day,
for the lay people,
he accidentally dropped and his cup broken...
his first reaction is about his expensive cup has broken and his heart is juz like being slashed by parang...
then he think about his money flew away..
felt very sad, very angry...

but for sage, those who fully understand the 'emptiness'
when his cup fell down and broken...
his first reaction is
ah...
impermanence..
the time of the separation of combination for this cup has reach...
His heart will not pulled away from this fenomena...
he will juz watch
understand wat is happening
then let the fenomena go...
very calm...
juz like the surface of lake water...

k la..
tonite sharing until here la..
sometimes watch reverend talks better than watching movie..
many things can learn...
haha

immobilized...

2009-09-13T18:42:00.002+08:00

where m i now?
wat m i doing?
how should i do?
who should i be?
when i starting to being poisoned???
i m IMMOBILIZED!!!!

the poison starting to attacking in me...
i can see it..
i reli can see it..
it moves slowly...
sometimes it moves very fast...
i juz cant control it..
it immobilized my thinking..
it immobilized my actions...
it immobilized my moods...
it makes me feel my feet is not on the ground..
it make me feel unstabe..
it makes me feel that i might fall down in any second...
smtimes i need time to get alone to c and battle wit it..
dats y i b alone...
dats y i dont talk...
dats y i acted cool...

many people keep giving me advises...
some give me lessons...
some even give me care...

but i am too busy battling with the poison inside me...
i need time to get over this poison...
but the time is too short 4 me...
i need to be quick..
in quick, i need to be mindful...
mindful about wat should i do...
mindful about where m i heading to...
life can seen asvery near to me..
but in a spilt of seconds..
it can make me feel it is very far from me...
many things are not within my control..
i juz can do what i can do....
i juz need time..
i reli dun like to make myself give n follow bad excuses
i reli want to do wat i wishes..

when many things and responsibilities come at one time...
they are the lessons 4 me...
they are the final exams for me...
they are the trainings for me..
they are the warnings for me..

my body feel tired...
i wish to sleep
a good good sleep...
a long long sleep...
sleep without worry...
wake up witout worry...
so nice...

i noe the situation now is different...
i noe there are many people is wit me..
but on this battlefield
onli me,the 1 person can fight wit the poison...
s i can c this poison
s i can watch this poison
i wont get scared..
i juz need time to get my feet back to the ground..
the strong n solid support from the ground
i need u...
i still move on with the time...
i still in defragment process...
senz..u can..
JUZ SMILE...

for dear seniors....

2009-09-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

this time...
as i see...
many seniors has drift far away from us...
many sail far away after pencen as committee...
v..
are those juniors..
which grow up because of the care of seniors...
now feel sad..
to watch this kind of fenomena....
supposedly senior who stepped down from committee board
should have stay behind those juniors
gv them the energy 2 move on
instead of these juniors need to worry about their seniors while working hard to attract new juniors....
these juniors will get tired easily
when see their senior like dat..
after retired from committee,
become the other pattern totally opposite than wat we fighting for when we are the committe together...
may be d reason or the excuse given behind this fenomena is
the society didn't gv me any position so they already dun need me...
position is juz d name...
it is nothing when u reli want to help this society...

i think..
reli true that..
no1 in this world is needed by every1...
it is how u make urself needed by every1..
u cant sit there n wait to be needed by people...
even the Buddha
if He did not realise and preach the Truth
he also now wouldn't needed by people

so u cant expect every1 would value you,
if urself wouldnt value yourself...
when every1 noe that u really sincere to be part of the family
then dun differentiate each other because of posts and name
dun make urself very expensive
the egoness
is the poison in a society
it makes every1 feel uncomfortable
and it can spread n kill every1 in the group..

this family need to reunite
the old members should get back strengthen its roots
when the roots is strong enough
it only can grow fast and good...
so dear my seniors...
i reli respect u all...
this family is not mine alone...
this family cant be throw away..
if you think this is the good place where u be in b4
please come back
gv energy to those who in here
plant the seed 2 those who new here
let them noe
the family can be exist in this university..
let them noe there is a place to go other than their own home..
come come...
our own family.....

if and is it???

2009-08-27T23:50:00.003+08:00

if a bird doesnt have its wing, is it still a bird???

if a chair losses one of its leg, is it still a chair?

if a house does not have its roof, is it a house??

if the water do not flow, is it still water??

if car does not have its wheel, is it still a car??

if a tree chopped down, is it still a tree???

if a man dies, is it still a man?

wat if i do this, is it that will happen??

wat if i cry, is it indicated i am sad??

wat if i laugh, is it indicated i am happy??

wat if i think, is it i can get the answer?

so many illusions...
so many questions....
so many locked answers...
so many keys to open each locked answers...
so many ways to find the keys...
so many strength i need..
so many patience i need...
so many love i need...
so many experiences i need...
so many advices i need...
so many hope i need...
so many need to learn...

keep goin
keep paddling
keep grinding
keep crawling
keep walking
i still able
thats me
me is that
talk cant be empty
words cant be empty
they wont empty if they fill with actions
actions...with wisdom
is the current
which makes me keep goin

i love you, senz....

Is the world same as we thought????

2009-08-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

there is a day...
which i was driving in a heavy traffic jam..
this day leaves me a deep memory which left me think quite much...
it happens when i drive my car slowly crawling in the jam...
as i stopped waiting the car in front to move,
i was controlling my clutch and oil step..

suddenly the cars beside both of me moving forward together,
n the car in front of me left me some distance away..
all happened so suddenly..
my first thought was do my car sliding backward?
straight away i stepped hardly on the brake
i still stepped on the brake..
y my car still moving backward??
second thought
if my car moving backward so fast, i surely will hit the car behind..
my brake might suddenly cant work...
the car still moving behind...
i must do something....
handbrake!!!
ya..quickily i pull my handbrake...
take a deep breath..
look at my rear mirror..
where is the car behind???
how is it???
do i hit it??
no...
everything is fine behind...
jus d car is horning at me...
oh..
now i realise what has happened...
i thought my car had moving backward..
but the real thing is i still at the same place unmoved
onli other passing beside me making me think that i moving backward
i believe behind this scene
there is something trying to teach me
i hv been thinking

actually
do our thought is real?
do we know sometimes our thought may be false?
do we think more than we know?
do we know wat actually happening in this world?
think and know are 2 different things
we should know first then we think
then how much do we know about this real world???
reflect back 2 ourself...
many mistakes we done are because we havent know this world yet..
what is real world?
where is this real world?
this real world is behind the great Truth
get to know the Truth then only we can see the Real World...

wHen A profEssOr MeeT wItH a BoaTmaN...

2009-07-31T18:28:00.002+08:00

I was walking in my university compound while heading towards class,
feel that my daily University life is quite pack,
then think is it from this busy life,
i make my life busy for nothing?
or from the busy, i learn many things?

suddenly pop!!!
a story which i heard b4 came out suddenly in my mind,
it is a story between a very high educated man and a very low educated man..

this high educated man is a professor who holds many high certificate in many educational fields, such as science, mathematics, physiology, and many more..
one day,
he wants to cross a river to the other bank,
so he go and find the boatman,
asking the boatman whether can take him across the river,
the boatman says yes...

so,
happily and gratefully the professor sits on the boatman's boat
n the boatman start to row his boat,
sitting facing the boatman,
the professor sees the boatman working hard to row his boat,
he then ask the boatman,
"dear boatman, how high is ur educational level?"
the boatman feel shock about his question,
but he answered him,
"only until standard 3,sir"
the professor 'geleng-geleng' his 'kepala'..
he said,
"ai yo..onli until standard 3 ka?
tak boleh ini macam...'mou chin tou' (no future)
u c me...
i got a PHD in science n Math, degree in Physiology, business, bla..bla..bla...
in the society now,
u nid 2 have at least 1 high educational certificate d...if not, u onli can become a boatman 4 d rest of ur life.."

the boatman din answer anything,
his head looking downward, feel sad and shy about d professor's comment,
suddenly, his boat accidentally hit a big stone in the middle of the river,
like in titanic,
his boat breaks into half and start sinking...(but dont have d titanic romantic scene la)
the professor stunned about wat had happen..
actually he does not know how 2 swim..
the boatman jumps into the river and swims away...
left the professor alone sinking along the boat..
the professor start yelling for help and asking the boatman 2 save him...
the boatman yell back at him
" actually i already have a PHD!!!
the PHD in SWIMMING!!!"
professor drown into his egoness and his ignorance...

this story is telling us that
watever we do and learn
think back why we need 2 learn that
is it juz for knowledge?
or for our life?
learn how 2 save our life is much more important to learn how 2 fill our life..
we live for once,
there is no two 21 years old...
so, why waste our life for nothing?
build life in the more meaningful ways...
u wont regret when u are closing ur eyes for the LAST TIME...

my first sketch (part 2)

2009-07-16T23:32:00.006+08:00

yesterday juz end my sketch...feel very proud of it...really..haha
b4 i start my feeling about it..
i would like 2 write down wat is part 2 all about....

Continues from part 1, when Johny is being tied to five horses..suddenly, a hero appears. He run towards Johny and try to save Johny.The hero cuts all of the ropes by his sword and grabs Johny. The guards of the punishment place rush towards the hero to prevent him save Johny. The hero fights with the guards as he takes Johny running away. The hero got chance to stab one of the guards but he chooses not to do so because he does not want to hurt anybody. The hero manages to escape with Johny. He and Johny run as fast as they could until the guards could not catch up.

Then they stop at a place. Johny with teary and thankful eyes, thanks the hero for saving him from the dead sentence. When Johny’s emotion becoming stable, he ask the hero why come to save him eventhough he deserved to have the dead sentence. The hero told him that he is one of the group which singing hymn and be together. Although Johny runs away from him, he always cares of the news of Johny. When he heard about the capture of Johny, he feels that he needs to help him. He feels that Johny has learnt his lessons and he should be given another chance. The hero tells Johny that the lifestyle and the actions he did are in the wrong path. There are many meaningful and right ways of painting our life. The hero shares that during the times he be with his group, he learnt many thing about himself and how to become a happy and true human. So he wants to share the feeling and the thinking to others. Johny ask him what if that time he joins the group, is that a university student should be?? What is a true University student be like? The hero said to him, ‘come, I bring you to a place to find out the answer’

(talk starts)

Johny know realize the meaning of the true university student. He is very happy that he finally knows that there are such kind of things that teaches him on how to live happily and healthily. The hero said to him that he hope that Johny know has learnt some about the meaning of life. And now the hero let him decides what he feel he need to do. Johny smile back to him and thanks him for saving him and show him such precious things. He later said to hero that he knows what to do already.

Johny later go and give up himself to the police. He determined that he needs to be responsible of his wrong doings. As the punishment going on, the ropes become tighter and tighter, Johny closes his eyes and stands the pain. As the pain become more and more stronger, he cant stand thus he shout out loud…..

(powerpoint comes in)
in the powerpoint,
i take "choices" as my theme..
choices is life
life is choices
as long as we are breathing, we will meet many choices
then we need to choose
each choices will lead to different destinations
sometimes we do not know we are the one who makes choices

life is juz like a river
know why we dont have a straight river from mountain to its final destination?
because during its flow,
it will meet many obstacles and need 2 overcome them in order 2 move forward.

so, there are so many choices in front of our eyes..
look back 2 ourselves and think
which 1 would be d best 4 me?

then i bring to introduction of UBF
firstly i show all the activities pic
then intro DSG n Meditation class
then give them a word from the Buddha

“ We are what we think.
All that we are
Arises with our thoughts.
With our thoughts,
we make the world. ”

the whole part 1 and part 2 finally wrapped up already
i personally feel satisfied
although during part 2, there are many unavoidable technical problems arises
if not, the sketch can be performed better
actually the quality of part 2 slightly lower than part 1,
may b can blamed 2 d little downfall of attitude for each actors and actress and also me
sometime takes things too easily
takes thing not seriously
i noticed that
but i cant do anything
i cant be too hard
nor be too soft
but i really hope that each people who participate in this could learn something
i personally had learn many thing
i learned to be patient, and i can see many kind of behavior of people
i played with my own feeling
sometimes i feel stressed, disappointed, happy, pity, nervous etc..
i managed to keep clam and keep believe in myself

ok ok
turn back 2 d part 2..
i that indeed feel shocked when what i tried to show in my sketch
fit perfectly to Uncle Vijaya's talk
even Uncle Vijaya ask whether we actually know what he going to talk about
tell d truth..
i really never thought that i want to link d sketch with what Uncle Vijaya goin to talk about
i juz too focus on the whole story and how to bring the storyline to the talk..
haha..
anyway, it is another success la...

the highlight i put on that day is the hero came down from d audience enterence and fighting with 2 guards accompanying by the theme song of Star Wars..i managed to get the attention from audiences at that scene..haha
another highlight is the powerpoint slide show
by let audience know about their life then throw a question
then let them see the pictures of activities so that they know what UBF is doing
the come the advertisment of DSG and Meditation class
wrapped up all of UBF in package to introduce to the newcomers..
but all of these are just technical things, they juz live for a short period..
the most effective of promoting is keep a human interaction relationship. The warmer the relationship, the better for our family...
so, think wat need to do
then do it...dont juz stop at thinking and saying..
ACTIONS ARE THE ANSWERS OF OUR THOUGHT...
jia you, senz and UBF family...

tHe Blind SpOt

2009-07-13T00:24:00.001+08:00

nothing is perfect in this world...
the perfection is when we fully understand that there is nothing is perfect..
many things when we see from our own view,
looks like they are perfect
but it is not the same when others sees from their view

the blind spot is the spot we missed to look at
it is the spot where we need others to remind us
if we still keep to ourself
we will learn nothing
we need to learn to put ourself aside
hear what others' opinion
we can choose not to accept first
and
we shall not blindly accept those opinion

we need to learn how to think and analysis
give the reason why we need to accept or reject
sometime multiple opinions can be combined into one more perfect opinion

although sometime there might be some hard feeling when hearing others' opinion
we need to come back to ourself
the enemy will not be the people who is giving the hard opinions
the enemy is ourself
if we defeated ourself's ignorance and ego
there is no such things as enemy
everything will be our teacher....
we will learning many interesting things everyday
doesn't it great????

tHe FirSt SkEtCh....

2009-07-11T20:46:00.004+08:00

Wednesday,9/7/2009
The welcoming nite
has ended...
remarked my first directed sketch has reach its middle of its plot..
to tell the truth..
my ownself actually

couldnt believe i can reach so far...
couldnt believe i can write out the story
couldnt believe i can think the plot
couldnt believe i can choose the actors and actress
couldnt believe i can work out so good with them
couldnt believe i can think out and do those costumes and props
couldnt believe i can direct the situation so smoothly
so so many...i couldnt believe...
but i believe that my direction is correct
and what i need to do is play freely within the rules of my direction
as long that i still within the boundaries of my direction
i am safe to go crazy and high...haha

may be the time in the future i look back here,
i might lost the memories about the first sketch which i turn it from the words on the paper to the drama on the stage..
now i plan to write the story here

the story begins with...

A high ranked government officer,Johny who is rich and quite powerful. During his work, he is very greedy and dishonest officer. He usually likes to receive and gives bribes to make his work easier and have additional income. But, he managed to do all of his dishonest actions without being caught and is able to clean the ‘dirt’ of his actions. Besides that, he also enjoy himself by going clubbing and playing games. He always busy on his own schedule until forgot to arrange time for his family. As a result, he always quarrel with his family and he feels that both of his parents are burdens for him. when his parents trying to advise him, he will feel that his parents are nagging at him, so he will fiercely fight back and scold at them.

As time goes by, Johny still does not want to stop doing the dishonest and evil actions. But, one day, his day turned into one of his worst day. As he is trying to asking and receiving for bribes, he did not know that his actions being watch by BPR. As he is going to leave after receiving the bribes, BPR sprang out and catch him. He is stunned and cant do anything.

As a high rank government officer, it is very serious if one being caught dishonest in doing his responsibilities. So, for Johny, he took to the magistrate court and then he is found guilty. Because he did many dishonest acts while doing his responsibilities, he is being slapped by a death penalty which is “body tear up by 5 horses”. He will stay in jail while waiting for his deadly sentence.

While waiting for his death, he lives in fear and sorrow. He feels very regret of his past evil actions. His parents visit him everyday and always encourage him to be more brave to face the greatest challenge ahead. He saw his parent still take care of him eventhough he always treat them ill. The tears of regret flow from the inner heart of Johny. From his mouth, came out the words, “mama, papa, I love you”. All three of the family hugged together and cried together.

One night, Johny suddenly reflect back during the time when he was in university. He remembers that he walking into a class where there are a group of people. There is a committee named Go Ask Him approached him and persuade him to join the hand expression dance.
( hand expression starts…)

A friend of Johny introduces Johny to play computer games. Johny starts to become more and more addicted to those games. When UBF committee try to persuade him to come. He start to make the committee life hard. But he at last attend the games session but reaches late because of playing computer games.

(games session starts..)

The other friend takes Johny go clubs for clubbing. Johny become more and more enjoying his life. After try once, he becomes obsessed with the feeling and wants to go there some more. The UBF committee need to be more hard to persuade him to attend. Johny tried to brush away the committee and scold the committee.

Johny cries as he feels regret for missed the chance to join and enjoy with the group. In his life, he has never met such a sincere group before. Additionally he does not believe there have such a group in the society today. He also feel regret because he mistakenly follows the wrong way which lead him to what he becoming now.

The day of death sentence reaches. Johny with very disturbed emotions ( scared, sad, etc) while being taken to the punishment place. When the Penalty officer throws the punishment stick to indicate the start of punishment, Johny screams, shouts, cries and 'meronta-ronta' while the process of the punishment is going on.
- His head is being tied to horse 1 “ Entertainments ” .
- His left hand is tied to horse 2 “ Educations”
- His right hand is tied to horse 3 “ Personal love gf/bf ”
- His left leg is tied to horse 4 “ Families ”
- His right leg is tied to horse 5 “ Job ”

As the horses begin to walk and the ropes becoming more and more tight, Johny becomes more and more scared. He really hopes that there will be a people come and save him. He closes his eyes and shouts painfully…

(to be continued)
the end of part 1

in this very part 1,
i try to bring out the real university environments to show the new comers
from my way, i try to get closer to my audience
people likes what they likes
people likes to have funny things so i added the funny elements
people might ask why i put DOTA and Clubbing in my sketch
they might be thinking y a buddhist club become like promoting people to those unhealthy lifestyle

my personal reasons are we DO NOT promote those lifestyle, we SHOW OUT that happen around us during our U life here.. PROMOTE and SHOW both are very different things.
after i show out, i bring them to see what will happen when they chooses to against activities which can develope the qualities of innerself. What will happen when they gone extreme inside those unhealthy lifestyle.. Yes, those computer games and clubbing are definitely fun than Buddhist fellowships' hand expression dance and hymns..that is when we see it in 'short sighted' and ignorance. When we wear our 'glasses' and 'telescope' to see more clearly, the different things came out... the realness between these two groups shown very clearly..the real cetak rompak shown very clearly..one is show us about the meaning of life while the other show us the fake happiness of life..what would u choose??

"body tear out with five horses"
may be you might want to know y i choose this so called death penalty..
the reasons are
1. easy to act...lol
2. many people couldnt guess this death penalty..many would guess hang to death, shoot to death and etc..haha..purposely make u all 'za dao'
3. actually, the main reason behind it is in our life, there are 5 most important things in our life. JoB, Family, Entertainment, Personal Love and Education.. these five groups i classified them as the death sentence horses..if we couldnt take care well of those horses, it is very same like being killed by the death sentences..it served as a warning to us to take care our life well...

before i end my sharing here 2day,
i shall not forget the most funny element i added in my sketch
the 'gardenia roti' which the mother brings for johny when she visited him in the jail..the scene is a sad scene but i added an unpredictable bomb to make my audience become 'za dao' along the sad but heart tickling music..haha..

k la...until here la my sharing 2day..very fun very fun...i really feel like i become Director Zhang YiMou who directed the unpredictable opening ceremony of Beijing Olympics.haha..not bad not bad,senz...jia you..yeah!!!

turn over the new leaf...

2009-07-05T23:31:00.005+08:00

huh..time time time...
time waits for no man...
time flies...
wa!! so fast ar??!!!
that's all i can describe for time...

tomorrow,
the new sem start for me to become a third year student...

tomorrow,
i will have a look of my new intake juniors...

tomorrow,
i will become people's senior

tomorrow,
i will meet new lecturers

tomorrow,
i will get to know my new subjects

tomorrow,
i will try 2 work more hard for my studies

tomorrow,
i will try 2 work more hard for UBF

tomorrow,
i will try hard to let more people to know the truth

there is when tomorrow become today,
today becomes present moment,
those 'i will' shall become 'i am ***ing'

for this sem,
i got do some thinking about some changes which can be applied in UBF and myself..
hope my plans can be succeed..

senior's words for me " once a UBF committee, always the UBF committee",
this words really touched me...

these days in UBF really taught me many kinds of things...
thanks to my commitment, my courage and my patience to stay here...
without them, i think i cant be where i am now...
when seeing other friends scared of UBF activities,
a feeling rised up inside of me...
the feeling was like i am afraid of myself...
juz like past myself
din understand that actually UBF is part of myself
and myself is part of UBF
so make me separate both myself..
'like man but not a man,
ghost but not a ghost.'
"nang bo di nang
gui bo di gui" (hainanese)

but after i understand that UBF is part of me..
my life turn into the new arena
Rev Ji Chern got said before
our life is juz like a game
this game have its rule
if we play this game without understand and master its rule,
we will end up suffering and fed up of playing this game
if we play this game when we understood and master its rule,
we can play happily and freely
in the same time, we can freely show out our potential and talent when playing the game without worrying about the rules...
it is juz like the game of chess...

so guys...make sure u noes the "rule" before playing the "games"..
if dunno, go dharma study class la..haha ^.^

7 days meditation retreat (QUIET 7)...

2009-05-19T11:52:00.002+08:00

7 days of training had passed...
for me,
it is one of a toughest camp i ever have...
reli trained my mental power...

7 days of meditation really taught me many things...
i can c my emotions go up and down like sitting in a roller coster...
some time i feel really want to give up...
some time i feel i got motivation can hold on..
some time i feel nervous..
some time i feel calm...
some time...
some time...

y i will feel so???
u will now if u c d time table of the retreat...
morning wake up at 4am..
straight go 2 meditation hall 2 meditate after brushing teeth...
meditate about 1 period then do some yoga exercise..
then meditate again
after that do morning puja...then breakfast
after breakfast, meditate for 4 periods straight until lunch...
after lunch, hear sifu's talk for 1 hour
then meditate again till dinner...
after dinner, can listen 2 d second sifu's talk...
after that go back 2 meditation hall 2 meditate again...
then can finally zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

fuh..
u think meditation is easy ar???
if easy then dun have the challenge dy lo...
my first 4 days feel like living in hell...
my leg pain taouuu..... T.T
my leg very hard and cant relax...
so when meditate, i attack by the pain as i need 2 fold it in half lotus position...
so, every period of meditation, i was like playing wars with my feeling...
i try 2 hold d pain and try not 2 give up by putting my leg free...
each time like this make me feel scared 2 start meditate
i wanna run away from the meditation hall...

but days passed...
things change....
each time i battle with my own feeling, i try up many ways to make myself relax...
then as i adjust my innerself,
i oso try 2 adjust my body position..
things start 2 get better...
i suddenly realise that before coming 2 this camp, i havent know the meaning of meditation
after this retreat, i have d enough confidence to put effort on meditation.

at the last night of the camp,
after 'wu jin tern',
we gether around ji chern sifu...
chatting with him..
he is very humourous and his word really full of wisdom..
really like 2 hear his idea and d way of expressing himself...
very very hard 2 get this opportunity to sit like this
n i sit at his left side sumore...wah..
i feel so lucky...
sifu chatting with us until 2 am something...
but i managed 2 tahan until 1am b4 went 2 sleep
i was thinking
if i do not join this retreat
i would not have learn so much
this is not matter of money,
this is the most valuable things that we can only work with our own sweats without money...

this is juz a very small part that i wanna 2 share out...still got many more until can write a dictionary...haha
for my kalyana mitra out there,
if you havent try this camp,
you can go have a try....
it will test and train our mental strength
and make us know how well we know about ourself...
we can not look down on our mind...
OUR MIND IS A VERY POWERFUL AND SPECIAL THINGS
ALWAYS DO REFLECT BACK 2 OURSELF AND AWARE OF OUR ACTIONS
BECAUSE WE HAVENT KNOW OURSELF WELL
AS WE ALWAYS THINK WELL OF OURSELF ONLY

Middle of holiday

2009-05-07T12:26:00.002+08:00

hAhA...

The final fever had gone for many weeks dy...
now in the middle of holiday..
this holiday..
until today..
many things have happened..
either good ones or bad ones..
but they all give me unvaluable experiences and memories...

"gan en" 8-)

juz after the final,
i joined UBF Dhamma camp
then help out in my village big day..
then go to Ipoh 'Bo Re Yan' to help sifu do cleaning
then 1,2,3 May just participate as fasilatator of primary school student camp...

now preparing to go to meditation retreat for 7days.
then stays at senior's house for few days before heading to chuan ying in Taiping...

hahaha...my May schedule full of activities...busier than Obama..kaka

Do "TOMORROW" exist???? ....

2009-03-09T11:57:00.002+08:00

Do tomorrow exist??
mmm...
i mean can we actually meet this day so called 'tomorrow'?
do we really live in the "actual" day of 'tomorrow?
think...
think...
when ar?..
when is the last time ar?
think..
think..

mmm..
do we realise that??...
every 'tomorrow' will come and become 'today'...
every 'later' will becomes 'now'..
every 'future' will becomes 'present'...
so do we actually can live in tomorrow, later and future????
logically,
scientifically,
truely,
d fact is...
WE CANT!!!!

but...
the problem of us as a normal human...
we think we can live in the future...
live in the future is like dreaming...

dreaming is an illusion..

we dream,

dream,

dream...

we feel syok in our dream...
we feel sad in our dream...
we feel scared in our dream...
we feel lazy in our dream...
we feel rejected in our dream...
we hope our dream become true and waiting it 2 become true...
we hope our dream will not become true and scared it will become true...
we waiting it 2 come...
we scared it will come...
wait or scared....
dream...
dream...
dream...
zzzzz......

if we always live like this everyday...
doesn't it looks like we sleeping throughout our life?
do we forget we have so called "today","present"n "now"???
do we know the real happiness when we live in present state??
do we ever enjoy the happiness before?
yes...
"live in the moment"
this is what i m going come out wit....
read n understand it looks like very simple ho....
that is what we think...
this 4 words...
not as easy to do than understand it...

for example...
we usually like 2 multitasking...
we hard to enjoy n focus on what we do...
we dunno what we are doin...
juz like robot...
can finish the process
but dunno the meaning doin the work...
meaningless work...
many times...
body is doin the work..
mind flew to another place
isn't it look like when in d serious accident...
the head break off n flew away from the body...
haha..
yucks!!!
so horrible..
but indeed
this is actually happen inside us...
scared le...
we all are the 'victim of the accident',
when we doesnt train our mind to stick with our actions....
it is hard...
but it is important..
it is meaningful...
it is LIFE....
it is EVERYTHING....
it is HAPPINESS...
n..
it is SUCCESS...

STOP LIVING IN FUTURE...
LIVE IN PRESENT..
v plan 4 future..
v create our goal 4 future..
BUT
v put our steps to the goal in PRESENT..
V start doing now...
dun think what will happen..
if we believe wat we doin doesnt run away from our objective,
JUST DO IT...

BELIEVE IN OURSELF....
WE CAN DO IT...
EVEN IF WE FAIL..
WE CAN LEARN SOMETHING VALUABLE FROM THE FAILURE..
SO Y SCARED 2 FAIL??
WHEN THERE IS NO FAILURE,
THERE IS NO SUCCESS...
WHEN WE KNOW HOW TO LEARN FROM FAILURE,
THE WORLD IS SO WONDERFUL AS THERE IS SO MUCH THINGS CAN B LEARN.

SO, LIVE TODAY, LIVE IN PRESENT, LIVE NOW.....LIVE IN THE MOMENT...

WE CAN DO IT COZ WE WANT TO DO IT....

'dana' (giving)

2009-02-27T09:42:00.003+08:00

Suddenly realise a bit about the meaning of dana...
realise that if we do dana without wisdom...
it will bring worries and many negative feeling....

this morning, i sweep my room's floor..
as usual, i start sweeping from my room
then i will challenge myself to sweep the whole house except d rooms of my friends..
as my house is a double stories house...
i realise that very few people will do like me..
sweeping the whole house...
y waste time 4 that??
i better use the time to read books or sleeping..
that might things that flying inside most of our head...
i oso noe that this will oso fly inside my head...
but i thought of if i dint sweep d floor...
my housemate oso wont sweep them...
the house will be more n more dirty...
every1 oso bcome more n more uncomfortable..
so
if i realise this is a bad attitude to be selfish
y i need 2 follow this attitude
if i want 2 change
i need 2 do and overcome this attitude

THE BATTLE OF ME and ME BEGINS.....

both side have d same amount of armies
same amount of General
but 1 side ME has d WISDOM, COMPASSION and DETERMINATION
another side has d EVIL, LAZINESS and SELFISHNESS
fight...
fight...
fight...
fight...
fight....
fight....
as i was sweeping d floor...
guess who will win....

haha...
like most of d movies...
of course good side will win la...
i was thinking...
dana is giving with voluntary...
giving with compassion...
with the spirit of hoping it will benefit others...
we never gv things that will hurt others...
so if what we do benefit others...
y we need 2 kira-kira(calculate) bout what we do???
like NIKE said "just do it"

the feeling of conquered the evil side...
so happy..
so enjoy....
like i already conquered one state of my mind country..
no pain no gain..
if i doesnt start d war
i will not get this winning...
it is worth 4 it
very worth...
if we want to change
we need to do and determine to do until the end
only loser that quits
thats the law of nature
dont just stop at talk onli
no use
to say 'i want to change'
then does not take any action towards that
the talk is meaningless
is empty
just an excuse
we need to do what we already determine
then we can grows in our life
of course do things toward d good side la....haha

for those haven learn buddhism
can try 2 learn learn
what the Buddha teach..
not exactly a religion
is about a teaching about how 2 become a TRUE HUMAN
what MANUSIA is about...
living beings which can be upgrade
all of the best psychology, philosophy, lifestyle, thinking, etc...
are all inside the teaching...
dont believe?
go c c la..
(if u want 2 c d result,
u need 2 be patient, sincere and d determination)
haha
no need 2 so formal n stress bout that la...
juz enjoy
life is about enjoy.....haha

my candle had lighted up...hv 2 light the others candles...

2009-02-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

These days...
feeling quite weird...
i think i have changed...
i think i hv come 2 a different level...
i can c quite clearly those worries arise around me...
i can n like to think bout its roots n try 2 solve it...
sometimes i feel very pity for those who still dunno they r playin with worries...
worries = a very bad friends...they can either kill u n make u suffer....
i oso feel that nw quite sensitive with 'hatred'
hatred is a one of the most dangerous feelin in the world....

i hv feel the joyness....
the different joyness.....
reli different....
d joyness from within.....
so special...
so long lasting...
so true...
so happy...
this joyness...
lit up my candle....
make me feel wonderful everyday...
connects me 2 c PU XIAN PUSA everyday...
make me feel that i reali touch both of my feet on d ground..
i neither scared of my academic nor my society...
as long s i din lost my focus...
everything is goin fine...

i now wish 2 pass my light 2 other candles...
for those who scared of UBF,
reli 1 2 tell u that a society is set up by people...
if d people change...
d society will change...
lets us bring d society 2 d ways that can b accepted by us..
YES..v can...
the direction that every1 fun 2 do 4 it....
juz d basic direction shall not gone far away...
if every1's candle is lit up,
i m sure these will written in our own history....
a good memories in our history...
i m sure that every1 wish 2 hv good memories than bad memories...
so y dun v choose 2 hv a good memories...
is juz d matter of wether v wan o not...
the matter of can o not is juz d excuse...
is the excuse...
reli excuse.....
if v always gv excuse....
v actually said "excuse me, can i excuse myself from this wonderful world to my little lonely world?"
is so pity..
very pity...
there r solutions 4 us 2 b a happy person...
but many of us juz 1 2 ignore them..
n claim that they will find their own happiness...
will they able 2 find???
mostly will trapped inside delusions, sadness, worriness...
some cases..
they fell down in tiredness, emotionless, sickness...
as everythin is illusions in front of our eyes...
v thought it is solid one thing n can never change...
d law of nature is juz opposite of wat v think...
everythin changes...
there are no solid one thing...
everything is combined by different things....
so y v craving on 2 them...
if time 2 let it go...
then let it go la...
if time is enjoy it...
then enjoy it la...

this light....
reli hope can pass 2 other people...
i sure it can...
coz if every1 gt lit up...
i sure that..
every1's world will b a beautiful world....
a beautiful world...
the world is so beautiful...
very beautiful...
beautiful..
so..
let us get our candle 2 lit d light same s me 2 c this beautiful world....

bukit tinggi

2009-02-22T22:53:00.001+08:00

i m on the rite track....juz keep on acceleratin

2009-02-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

juz coming back from the so called "er mei shan"(er mei mountain)...haha... feel that pu xian pusa reali always next to me and guide me everytime....He knows that i need 2 noe the meaning of his 10 vows..so he arrange many ing yuans 4 me to get better known of his 10 vows...so, in conjunction with that, he arrange seniors 2 make a committee refresh camp in Bukit Tinggi..

Fuh...so, after the preparation session of Moral stuff, i n Jeng Shiuh straight go 2 Bukit Tinggi as i drive...haha..1st time drive so far 2 place i nvr been b4...luckily can reach there safely..the feeling goin to Bukit Tinggi juz like feel goin 2 'er mei shan' go c puxian pusa..in my mind, this is very very precious...if i not a committee, i wont hv a chance 2 hv this joyness.. deep inside my heart, i cried 4 those committee who din hv d ing yuan to join this refresh camp...u all are so pity...ke lian..this is a very precious precious chance 2 know and upgrade ourself but u all missed the chance...T.T

goin there, besides hearing 10 vows of pu xian, i manage 2 get recognization from Bro. Chong n seniors about my thinking and my experience of Dhamma...feel that i realli on d rite track...anyhow, learning Dhamma is not juz listening n know what is said...it is about how u practise what u learn n experience them... 4 me, d more frequent v experience the dhamma, the more v noe about ourself n the more v can live in happily n also v can c the world more n more clearly...THE POWER OF DHAMMA--DONT UNDERESTIMATE IT...

During this camp, feel that d bonding among committees who went n seniors,getting stronger...also feel that Mei Er, Wei Hau, You Wei, Ah Kong had learnt smthing n really hope this will boost their confidence in Dhamma... Seniors especially old seniors reli reli fun n so caring bout us...haha..

haha...it is juz 2 days n 1 nite camp...many things happen in this camp..either 'cant c light'events or 'can c light' events..haha...everything oso so fun...also can live in France style of village...n from this camp, i observed that 'smthing big' will happen...haha...secret...juz duduk dan tengok..i hv seen d review..the 'big movie' goin 2 release...haha..stop 4 here 1st...short camp but very very nice camp..i hope i gt another chance 2 go there..NO REGRETS 2 B IN THIS FAMILY..

come la.....STONES!!!!!!

2009-01-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

People says new year new hopes..
but 4 me, this year would make me say new year, new challenges..
haha...

many things keep coming banging on me...just feel like standing in the middle of a circle of people who keep throwing stoneS at me... But luckily, i still have d feeling like a big strong pillar..standing strong and wont let the stones hit me down...so i gonna be wise..hv 2 let go which i think i cant handle n focusing on wat i need 2 do.. When let of the stone, makes me hope dat the stones wont turn back n hit me again..i m juz a normal human, i cant please any1..

My education n fellowship being my major stones testing my life...i now defending against these stones...so i hv 2 avoid n let go other stones which might lower down my defence..but,may be when i let go other stones will effect the major stones become stronger against me...but i cant do anything as is not within my control...n of course i reli dun hope dat will happen...it juz make me feel more tired n may b my strong pillar might juz go down meet d ground...emotionless...defendless....tiredness....sadness...sickness

4 me, tell me, remind me, my ownself....escaping is not a soln..turn away is not a soln..everything hv cleared...y makin ownself like a monster...y want 2 run from reality? y not accept d reality n get goin by the wise n wisdom way? mind make the problem arise, y not we cure the sickness of our mind n start goin in new direction??
not like we dun undertand, juz we dun1 accept the reality n keep pressuring ownself n others...have 2 cool down n think back..is it worth 4 everything i do, i think, i speak? wats the wisdom way 2 solve this thing?
Juz cure it from my mind....
many things we thought we reli need 2 have, if not we will die..
IS IT WE NEED 4 LIFE?? O WE WANT 4 LIFE??
need n want is different things...think n reflect back...is we will die if we doesnt get wat we want... i c back my GOLDEN SPOON... 4 everything, 4 everytime, we reli need 2 have limit..we reli nid 2 noe where n when 2 stop...CRAVING is o horrible things...scary....

k la..i think i stop here first..fuh..all my heart shit poured here..haha..senz ar..senz...u need continue become a strong pillar o...u still need 2 make good 'ing yuan's 4 u and other people....jia you

life is never a straight line..

2008-10-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

2moro I will sit for 2 tests in a row...but these few days, there are things happen- make me suddenly think about life.. I becoming more and more confirmed that life is really not a straight line..it is just cant be replaced by a certain formulas and there are many times, things wont happen as u think it will....what you give out is not the same thing on what will return to you... we should need to be prepared every time and everywhere,and always b creative- think of many sides of the things, for me, if i lack of this, i sure will gonna fall in the trap n get suffered..i try to avoid that happen...so, i always try 2 THINK MOST, FEEL THE NOBLES AND ACTS THE BEST.....

Sharing is Caring

2008-09-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

There was a story which I once heard from a senior, it is a true story that quite touches my heart. It was said to be happened in one of a children Buddhist Camp in Malaysia here. Most of those children participants are just about 5 to 12 years old participated in this Buddhist Camp which organized by university students. As usual Buddhist camp, there was a reverend invited to lead the Buddhist camp and to teach some teaching of the Buddha. To lead those children during the camp, those children were divided into groups and each group will be taking care by a university student, as mitra during the camp.

So, in this very camp, there was a special incident happened. During one of the meal time, the reverend restricted those mitras from taking their meal and told those children participant that their mitras can not eat the meals as there is no more food for them. This incident happened unexpectedly as those mitras, camp’s committee members and children felt shocked. As the relationship between mitras with their group quite close because they have played together in this camp before this event, something ‘touches heart’ acts showed by those children participant in their intuitions to help their mitras. What was happened actually is, with the natural feeling and without any instructions, automatically, each of those children sincerely shared out some of their foods to give to their mitras. The mitras were crying watching this incident as they feel very touched. Although I not be at that time watching this incident, I still can feel very touched by only hearing to this story.

Actually, from this incident, we can think back to ourselves, have we ever share out our belongings so sincerely, like those children, to help those who in need? From what I think, may be it ‘looks’ simple to do like those children but mostly we just stop at this ‘look’ level. When we have the chance to do this sharing, I think most of us could not do as sincere as those children. This happens only if we got the intention to share our things out, but there are many among us nowadays even not willing to offer their help towards those in need. Maybe we blamed on the development of our society nowadays which, care only to our own problems that causes this sad scene. But actually we should know that we can change this by starting to change and educate our inner self. We must know and be able to differentiate on what is right and what is wrong, and also what should we do and what we don’t, and we should not just follow blindly as being pulled by the development of the society. As a human, we have the ability called ‘humanitarism’ which makes us care about others beings and not selfish of our own selves, so let us use this ability wisely and please don’t waste this wonderful and special ability by keeping it just to ourselves.

Sushi King treat... ^_^

2008-09-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

My birthday have passed more than a month.. but my 'brothers' still want to celebrate it wit me today..actually not they didn't remember to celebrate it wit me, is me myself too busy doing my club activities things and my academics things.. so, when today i feel quite free, the conditions enough 4 me to go out enjoy with them... Fortunately, in this month, SushiKing got a promotion which after sending a sms to Sushi King, we can eat 1 and free 1, means if you eat for rm4 plate things, you will get another rm4 plate free... i ate until 10 plates...fuh..full until want to letup...haha..
But feel really paiseh when my friends all share their money to treat me...haha..anyway, really thank you guys!!!! ^0^

The golden spoon...

2008-08-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

There is a story...

A person who name is Jack,

He had just bought a spoon made of gold.
When he uses it for his meal, he found out that his gold spoon does not 'match' his ceramic bowl. So, he felt very uneasy and not comfortable.

So, he went to buy an expensive and very good quality of bowl. He thought he will be happy when having his meal. But, things went out of his thought, Jack suddenly found out that the dining table does not 'match' with his bowl and spoon. Then, he starting to feel uncomfortable again. So, now he plan to buy a very classy and stylish dining table to 'match' with his bowl and spoon.

When he got the table which can 'match' his spoon and bowl, he thought that everything is enough. But, things happen again in the opposite way, when he saw the stylish, classy and expensive dining table, he again found out that the set of dining chairs does not look good with his dining table..Now, he want to change the set of dining chairs to those which can 'match' with his dining table.

So, when he finally get his chairs, table, spoon and bowl 'match'ed. He found out that these are still not enough, those expensive chairs, table,spoon and bowl does not match his house. So, he has the great feeling to move to a new, big, expensive and nice house to match with what he had.
When he moved into his new and big house, he thought he already satisfied on what he has. But, later he found out that his car does not match his house, so he now going to change his car to a more better and stylish one.
...
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....
So...do you think Jack will be satisfied after he got his new and stylish car?
if your answer is yes,
Sorry, i don't think so...don't you think we just like Jack?
We always craving endlessly..from a small little things, we usually crave over things which we think that they 'could make our life better', but do you think those things really can help us?

STOP..and think... What is our motive to go and craving for things? do those things really can help us in life? It is important to think first before spending money,time and emotional to those things, which we 'think' we like to have them. PLZ DONT be like Jack...craving for those unmeaningful things will ended you in nowhere. THE MORE THINGS YOU HAVE, THE WORRIER YOU ARE..SO, why make your life so suffer???

and

FOR JACK,
Do you think that those expensive things you have will remain with you forever?? What will you do if those things gone in a blink of eyes, either by robbery, fire or nature disaster?? Can you easily accept it? Let me remind you, the greater craving you have, the greater worry or phobia you have on losing those things...
AND another thing, You CANT take those together with you after you passed away... SO THINK CAREFULLY O....

DEAR me, do not feel tired and busy or SCARED!!!!

2008-07-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

Tests are coming, i have so much to digest.
Activities so much, i need to participate.
My heart is so lazy, and my body actually feel a bit tired.
Besides, i also have other personal problems... i have a little bit of tummy dy...my fitness,speed, agility and skills all went down...haih...*0*

When see all together at a glance...fuh..i feel very STRESS!!!! TIRED!!!!BUSY!!!! AND... of course SCARED!!!! what do i scared? i really scared i couldn't catch up wit other people else.... arghhhh..

Anyway, that is one of view of seeing into there matters la.....but i choose to list all the things down.. Then i set priority to each things which i need to do...At this time, of course have to do planning la...D most Important THING is do not ever feel panic!!! Need to mindset that every problem have its own solution..even it does not have solution, it will have way for us not to die so teruk...haha... Those who say do not have solution are those make their decision very fast without claming down and think awhile..these people i would like to label as 'easy give up' type..n i will try not to belong in this group...haha

Then, when i finishing each in my list, i should concentrate in what i am doing. I shall not keep thinking the other that i havent do..As this will make me feel tired, stress, and scared... the most important short sentence ~LIVE IN THE MOMENT~..if i can do this, i can feel the happiness and the Ohm of finishing each task in my list...haha

As time keep flowing, i still need to learn to be living in each moment... and do you know why this moment is very special and we should happy with it???????~~becoz it is call 'PRESENT'...we always feel happy when we receive present especially birthday present...so, let us feel happy as we receive this PRESENT MOMENT....

My First Blog....

2008-07-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

my first blog begins......

What I need to write in here ar?
I think I want to explain why do I put my blog title as 'deep heart'..
'deep heart' this word which i choose because i hope i can share out what are inside my heart and mind. mmm...although deep heart sounds quite weird in english, but it sounds cool when it is in chinese,心深.

So, to go parallel to my blog title, i chose a heart template which it carries a quote 'trust your heart' which go very well with my title..and also its background colour is red==my favourite colour..haha

So, i reli hope that i can have time to share out what contain in my mind in this blog...opinions, experiences, emotions and so on....

As this is my starting point, i would wish myself good luck and 'gambatei'...haha...and also i want to share my merits of good deeds to all of beings, may you be well and happy...