come la.....STONES!!!!!!

People says new year new hopes..
but 4 me, this year would make me say new year, new challenges..
haha...

many things keep coming banging on me...just feel like standing in the middle of a circle of people who keep throwing stoneS at me... But luckily, i still have d feeling like a big strong pillar..standing strong and wont let the stones hit me down...so i gonna be wise..hv 2 let go which i think i cant handle n focusing on wat i need 2 do.. When let of the stone, makes me hope dat the stones wont turn back n hit me again..i m juz a normal human, i cant please any1..

My education n fellowship being my major stones testing my life...i now defending against these stones...so i hv 2 avoid n let go other stones which might lower down my defence..but,may be when i let go other stones will effect the major stones become stronger against me...but i cant do anything as is not within my control...n of course i reli dun hope dat will happen...it juz make me feel more tired n may b my strong pillar might juz go down meet d ground...emotionless...defendless....tiredness....sadness...sickness

4 me, tell me, remind me, my ownself....escaping is not a soln..turn away is not a soln..everything hv cleared...y makin ownself like a monster...y want 2 run from reality? y not accept d reality n get goin by the wise n wisdom way? mind make the problem arise, y not we cure the sickness of our mind n start goin in new direction??
not like we dun undertand, juz we dun1 accept the reality n keep pressuring ownself n others...have 2 cool down n think back..is it worth 4 everything i do, i think, i speak? wats the wisdom way 2 solve this thing?
Juz cure it from my mind....
many things we thought we reli need 2 have, if not we will die..
IS IT WE NEED 4 LIFE?? O WE WANT 4 LIFE??
need n want is different things...think n reflect back...is we will die if we doesnt get wat we want... i c back my GOLDEN SPOON... 4 everything, 4 everytime, we reli need 2 have limit..we reli nid 2 noe where n when 2 stop...CRAVING is o horrible things...scary....

k la..i think i stop here first..fuh..all my heart shit poured here..haha..senz ar..senz...u need continue become a strong pillar o...u still need 2 make good 'ing yuan's 4 u and other people....jia you